Saturday

it has been a slacky day and i missing slacking
and my slacking time is never enough
i am so happy
1) 4 more chapters to go to finish the book of Acts, for prep
2) i got invited (not by permission) to participate in the PSA carolling for christmas celebration
3) Vera asked if i am keen to join the church carolling and i said yes, feeling so excited abt it.. haha i dont know why, i love to take part in church activities with the ppl in church lol
4) Actually, i was touched la, i mean.. Vera kinda asked to meet up with Melody and I to catch up
like wow, which dgl so caring right? i mean like... yeah and i was thinking next time when i become like her, shld i do that too? its not abt thinking if there is going to be topics to talk abt, its not abt thinking whether things will turn out awkward, its not abt worrying if we are going to turn up or what (but of cos we have to turn up like DUH).. its all abt I WANT TO CATCH UP WITH YOU kinda statement which this is what i called smth like love in the church
we care, we love, we try to understand ppl's problems and we see how we can help, its not abt being close but its abt having a common belief that brought us closer, dont you all think so? HAHA
yeah and i thanked God for that :)
I feel that there are more areas where i can serve and bring myself more into the family of church..

and recently, i am addicted to the Plant VS Zombies game
omg this game is addictive for me, and i always feel stress as i level up and seeing zombies coming i would actually scream and yeah ppl in the hse looking at me thinking what on earth am i screaming looking at my phone HAHA but its exciting and after every game, i would have a breath of RELIEF like HOOO
ITS DONE!

and recently, i have great motivation to work, although yes i know, SIAN is one of the words but i indeed enjoyed the absence of my managers and the (mentor) PA so yeah
being more independent and taking over my ex-colleague's job
and actually i would wish that i have 110% motivation greater for school so that i will be excited to study and also considering taking a part timer job in a hotel but not confirm yet.. i miss working and i hope that i can work in MBS this time, well not really erm "wise" to always stick to the same hotel becos i want to explore more customer service of the different hotels :)
hahah i am like feeling excited for smth i have to wait for a few months and on a 50-50 chance...

blogged last friday

Hi peeps, i guess at this point of time i can blog abt one of my colleagues who left PSA?
yeah, i actually wanted to share abt it here but havent had the time to
ok so I dont want to admit that i have the time right now but yeah HAHA

anyway, since she resigned, i will be taking over her job which isnt a good news becos it was promised that i wont be taking it so i dont understand what was going on
and reason simply being that they have yet to find someone to replace her job
and now everyone is messed up, three ppl taking over her job
firstly, they didnt tell us what we doing
second, i guess i am going to be crazily busy cos of this cos i am shouldering her stress which actually i am prepared to make myself even more want to leave/resign.. THANK GOD!
third, things are delaying and delaying and i heard that one day have 20 bills and it has been ... 3 weeks alr?well done dept!

yeah, being sarcastic here is so much better, yeah i know, not a good girl nor an excellent example but well, i have to stand up for myself abt this right?
so for now, i have to handle like both parts of my company
and i really hate to talk abt what am i doing in work, yeah i know i have ppl coming to ask me what do i do and blah blah blah
i dont blame them for asking cos they dont understand whats going on but if they keep asking and asking like as if they want to work in my company, YOU ARE WEIRD!
hahaha
ok i shall stop being evil

ok so the story was to be abt my dear and closest colleague named Jiaxin
she can be like my partner for every single thing we participate in PSA events
and yeah!! i really miss her, its like i kinda lost a best friend in my company
*why am i having cravings for poach eggs?* #random
HAHAHAH omg i am like acting like some weird girl like in youtube trying to advertise her OOTD den she was like "there is a hair in my mouth" erm erm.. RANDOMZ!
ok so yeah, i really do miss her and we didnt even had the time to talk much
i miss "gossiping" with her and crapping away with her
yeah, indeed lunch feels so empty without her and i am serious abt this.. not exaggerating
i shld pen down what happened in my company.. but not here not now, when i feel like it haha
kinda got to remove this address from my fb if not everyone has the chance to read my secrets which can be public but not too public even my colleagues know

Happiness

We always want to be happy
once we are happy, we always want to be more happy
... and we never feel enough

whats a simple happiness in our hearts?
i believe and feel that we always take things/people for granted
and tend to forget what good things they had contributed in our lives

can you recall when was the last time you feel that you did something great?
or spent on smth super expensive?
or did smth to make a person smile?
why do we need to pursue happiness?
we all want to be happy, why? BECOS when we are happy, we are satisfied with what we have and we feel SUPER SHIOK
cos there wont be complains, there wont be problems, everything just went tooo smooth for us till we forgot what happened to make that happiness

when you are angry with someone, or feeling pissed, offended, pathetic, think of how did that someone contributed in your life, if its just PURELY NOTHING, no point thinking over him/her cos its not worth it and life has to move on
but if there is, treasure that thought and that moment and remember it, thank the person for it although it could happen a few days or months or even years ago :)

in addition, we dont necessarily need a particular person to make us happy each time, thats kinda .. i wont say bad but poor thing?
we need to find ways to make ourselves happy?
for me, its pretty simple, just smile at any random moment, YEAH YOU GUYS THINK I AM NUTS
no! but thats my spirit, a powerful cheerful spirit God had graciously gave me and i am not going to neglect it
i love it when ppl praised me for always being joyful and all
when i told one of my colleagues that i ever cried during working time, she went "HUH really meh, wah but i always see you mei shi, still so happy leh, wah i like ur spirit, how i wish i can be like you"
even my boss also told me "oi, can you stop smiling, just put out a pokka face"
they love how positive i am on how i portrayed myself
I love and thanked God for this spirit :)

IRRITATED

firstly, i want to explain why i am being irritated
1) one of my colleague resigned
2) surprisingly, i was PROMISED that i wont be even touching her work
3) sadly, i was involved in the handover and will be doing most of her job when there are others so much more experienced than me (sophia - 50% of her work, others only 10% or so to make up for the other 50%)
unfair! poor management!
and the job i am doing is to process bills and still waiting for the boss to brief me
i hope he will on monday becos right now, ppl are passing me letters i dont know (I SEE MANY STARS)
expecting me to know what the heck i am suppose to do
PLUS, I DONT EVEN HAVE ACCESS TO ANYTHING HOW TO PROCESS THOSE BILLS?
its stacking like hell and i really hate it
no sense of urgency, i shld have left with the same reason

SUPPORT NICH!

woah quite sad that this blog's readers' views are going down..
hahah i better update and make my life seem more interesting
actually i didnt really advertise this cos for stalkers, they just go to my fb last time but now is i dont even post it on fb so yup!

i am here to actually advertise my friend's portfolio here and so hope more viewers will come and support
http://nichxav.wix.com/portfolio
up there is the link
oh gosh i miss the blogging skills alr hahaa
stay tune la when my life gets more interesting!
SUPPORT NICH!

I always never fail to thank God its a friday

This IS sweet haha ...

Having being in conversations that talk abt marriage haha, i am so not into it although i have to admit that it does sound interesting .... and ... scary?

during teabreak today, in a grp of ppl that talk abt "when to get married" or "when to have children", and they were still telling me how young i am to continue to take my time to pick guys HAHA

oooooo k?!

LIFE UPDATE

sometimes you just need a random person to be around to make jokes for you, and that someone was Aeson today, although it was just a short jokey question, it totally lightened my heart and told myself hey, you know, sometimes we dont have to really expect a particular someone to help us along to move on but any random person can do it too!!

haha and the fact that i was kinda touched by that and this, he does not have to know but it just made me speechless as to how to answer his joke HAHA

Thank you so much Eugene for a little of ur advice, cos i am really in this right now and yes telling my dad was the only solution right now and hopefully things work out right

LIFE UPDATE:
stress;messedupalittle;busy;veryverytired

GOOGLE GAME!

HI EVERYONE!!
this was what made my day hahaha

hahaha 31 candies (intentional) and below states my highest score so far but i shall stop playing alr ahahah

i should have type something in the box lorh (JUST SAYING!!!)

YAYYY!!!
My colleagues and i decided to wear red today ahah what a mob
not flash mob but can say erm "color" mob? ahah
last week was blue and today is red, i wonder whats up next week

hehe, cant wait to sing for church this sunday!
have a blessed weekend ppl :)

#arentwecool

Fire Drill, a new interest than korean drama

haha today is a day that i had my best experience to climb down the stairs from the 37th floor
sigh, really lost all motivation no doubt i can find it back but its like you know
a point in life time when you just had no choice cos you lost all interest in all things that you have to "accuse" urself for being lazy and not efficient

well, I have found one interest in life haha
may not agree with me but its ok, haha i can be weird at times or rather i can say what i am facing now could already drove me to this state

Introducing the MAURY SHOW:
well, how on earth i even get to know this show was through a youtube video filmed by a 15 year old girl, pregnant and other links are as shown, Maury
(haha dont ask me why did i even get to there but somehow yeah, a random curiosity led to an interest)
this show reveals the truth through LIE DETECTIVE TEST as well as DNA TEST
and watching intense and complicated family issues makes me wonder how corrupted the world can be
its an American show but filmed in New York and its still on going
and alot of scenarios you can never imagine, more worse to come :)
this is the link for introduction of Maury's show : http://www.mauryshow.com/

and i am not advertising this to pollute you guys or what or saying that i am being polluted, its just interesting seeing how these are managed and reaction of people...
all you have to do is to go youtube and type "maury show" and ALOT of video cases you can go and watch
each time i watch, my jaw just drop lower and lower
i shall not give any examples here after a second thought cos i do respect their lives, but yeah feel free to watch
this guy has alot of supporters :)

sigh,
i guess i shall rant here cos no one will judge me in a way that i will know in here
I HATE WHAT I AM DOING
it started off from lack of interest, to dislike to unwilling to hate
and the best part is, i do not have a choice

ytd a question struck me by one of my friends saying "why are you doing this?"
well to be honest, that shld be the question that i ask myself why am i doing this
WHY AM I DOING THIS? why am i doing smth that i hate?
is there a solution right now? i dont think so, i would probably just go crazy

if i am given choices to choose from such as
1) go to the beach alone to cry, cool down and meditate
2) "drown" myself in a swimming pool in my longest breath
3) book a high class hotel to sleeeeeeeeeeep as long as i want

what am i doing? this is just so ... i dont know
want to cry but want to be strong
want to stay positive and how hard can it be
want to get away but i cant run away
this horrible feeling accumulated since the start of the year

why am i here? why am i here for? why am i doing this? why am i facing all this?

there is just a point of time in my life that i did not present my troubles to God
.........................
RANTING, is one of my hobbies now (sad to say)
... i guess i have to live with it and stay strong and conquer

update?

Hi Diary, Melinda, friends and people of the world
I am back to blogging because I JUST MISSED IT

life has been more exciting apart from you (something, not someone)
yeah and I really thanked God that I am more involved in church now and all

Firstly, I want to thank all those awesome peeps who celebrated my 20th birthday
1) My department ppl
2) My colleagues and temps
3) Sunita Amurthalingam, Kaisheng, Darrel, Gisele, Vanessa
4) Grace, Wilson (partially laaaa)
5) Random 6, sort of?
did i miss out anyone? ahhh too many alr
hahaha i counted and 9 all tgt HAHA!!
in any case i miss out or what, THANK YOU people still :)

Secondly, I am happy to be able to lead my girls up till this day with Michelle :)
we had an outing not long ago, just ytd and i guess they all had fun? haha
we ate pastamania, shopped, movie, shopped HAHA
i miss shopping so much!!

LIFE, blessed and blissful ahhaa NOT DRAMA horh! its real :)

on contrary, things didnt get right as well
starting to have family issues that i need to help out
starting to realise BETTER things in life.............
PS i dont know how to continue this but yeah I am alright la

i just hate friends who really make use of you..
and the reason why i "hate" instead of "dislike" is becos i felt that through all these years, I am just being made used of so much so that i had enough
accumulation of using me, i have been too kind

--- being such a shopaholic, such a sin easy to repent for Sophia HAHAHAA

Blessed and Blissful

Hey guys,
It has exactly been a month ever since i blogged
ok well, august has been hectic for me, same as for july!

let me start by announcing that i dyed my hair, hahaha burgundy colour but it stated brown
well, i wanted to have a new look of red and perhaps since national day is coming .... -.-

practicing for SOUNDS PERFECT
(the day i will never forget that i was so proud of myself to be God's child)
practicing for LEADING WORSHIP FOR THE YOUTHS
(it was a sunday, a meaningful one)
practicing songs for PSA national day event
I SHOULD SAY SOPHIA HAN IS SO AWESOME
and all practices involved singing

i really want to thank GOD for being able to control my sore voice while leading worship and gave me three days of grace after recovering before Sounds Perfect comes in

Sounds Perfect:
Firstly, I would like to say a BIG THANK YOU to everyone (including God) for making this event happen
we all had fun, performing and i kept telling myself that its not really abt singing but I, am telling the audience the message of God, I, am telling you guys sitting there hahah HEYO~!

Secondly, I would like to show my appreciation to my sweet colleagues, Eugene and Nich Chiang for coming down to watch my church event
they had fun, and also addressed to me abt the importance of being a leader of a grp after that event when we were chilling at starbucks HAHA

Thirdly, I have always been having this question as part of my christian life and i was assured that Charles had given me support in finding out more abt it. Thank you so much Charles, really appreciated it :)

---this roughly ends my sounds perfect, does it sounds perfect??? ---

Next up comes in the PSA national day practice, we have a grp of choir singing and performing for the audience which mainly includes CEOs and High ranking management teams and it was definitely my honour and pleasure as a 6 months staff to be involved in this event, not only as a performer but also a committee who works at the logistics section
I did issued T shirts to the choir team, and SG tattoos which we planned to wear them on during the performance and emailing them reminders for practice and all
this is a mini achievement but to me is a GREAT improvement in working :)
Thanks Eugene for ur advice too!! haha
our performance was recorded and YAY!! I didnt look unglam or what ahahhaha
but the main point was the audience enjoyed themselves and also pen down their wishes for Singapore on a PSA board that we had come out with and i am so so so proud of the choir team!

Hsin yi said she wants to include me in the dancing team for this event next year
Gerald said he wants me to be the organiser for the choir team
and i am so so so willing to be involved into this and ready to learn more from these and taking up such challenges

God has blessed me so so so much, and not forgetting He has always been in me, beside me and all, even on my 20th Birthday!
It was an amazing year, what I called a BLAST! surprises surprises surprises, i never had any proper one except this year
there were a total of four and perhaps some still awaiting :)
Thank you so so much to my colleagues - 3 surprises in total hahaa
Thank you so much Sunita Amurthalingam - one in Bangkok's Hard Rock Cafe
the year, i really teared for my birthday :) it was just, awesome and amazing, i get to know who are those who truly treasure and love me and who are willing to take this effort and time to even prepare these for me
I thank God to be appreciated by these bunch of ppl and definitely those who cant wait to celebrate my birthday too... on 31st aug (HINT HINT!!) hahaha

Bangkok was amazing and BIG BOOMS!
we shopped, we ate TOM YUM, we got sore legs etc but it was a memorable trip for me and a wonderful gift I have given myself as a birthday present :)
Thank God we are back home safe and thank You so much for putting WONDERFUL. AMAZING. AWESOME people in my life :) I am happy to live :)

Be Strong. Be Positive. Have hope for God is with you

22 July:
It was definitely worth it to take leave on this day
I REALLY NEEDED A BREAK!
and realised that now i have to save my leaves alr
felt so relaxed for once and away from work, not having to worry this and that and just living ur simple life in your comfy home

went for a farewell party organised by Emily
hahah thank you so much for inviting me, i am a rare guest indeed HAHA

23 July:
for the first time, felt so recharged at work
everything seemed to be so well-organised and i really love it
had a private talk with my manager and really felt blessed for what he said
anyway, even if it happens or not, i still want to thank God for everything He has done and put into my life

*I have always been wanting to blog abt my days, they can never get anymore less interesting

24 July:
I got the best opportunity in PSA to represent my company and also my department to be an ambassador hosting the NYP students
it was definitely a great experience for me which i never want to let go
I got "sabo" but it was a fair choice i should say, thank you so much :)
I so wanted to go and of cos got excited and could not wait for it
had briefing with Derek (the one whom i thanked for shortlisting me, finally got to work with him), Janice and Eugene to know how to guide the students on that day itself
it was so fun seeing poly students, reminds me of just last year, and mixing so well with the lecturers were definitely my pleasure and honour
talking to them abt my experience as an intern was indeed a rare opportunity for someone to share at this age and in this company, i should say i definitely accomplished more than just Human Resource, no doubt, my knowledge may lack of things that i forgot but the journey allowed me to see how God was / is working in my life, planning my direction and all
going back to PPT 1 & 2 was amazing, ppl whom i dont know recognised me and still remembered my name, i felt thankful :) met Mr Choo, Joy, and Sharon!! I miss her, but was sad that i didnt get to see Lina
got the chance to go for a port tour and it was so fun, like being a child taken to see big containers and vessels and all and you go like WOW, COAL (cool)


Life doesnt just stops here..
for me, it goes on and on and drains you down
BUT... this is when you will need to learn to pick urself up in a positive way and facing it strongly?
i realised I have been shedding tears almost every week and if this continues, no one can help me even if i needed someone
and so, with all courage, i decided to change my perspective of seeing things and prayed
pouring out my troubles to God and being clear on what i am saying and going to do next
this, to me, is important!
it will be point if i keep saying tmr will be a better day but not doing anything abt it or to it
today, daniel came over to my table and told me say that
each time he sees me, he felt that i become skinner and skinner...
become more tired, and lack of energy or alertness kind of thing
it was definitely a good thing if i continue like this and slim down but it was definitely never good as an overall consideration
life has to go on and we just got to live with it
treasure what God has given to you
cos one day, you feel that you have done so much and drained urself down just becos you are trying to make ppl happy instead of taking care of yourself

anyway, i shall stop blogging here
i thanked God for obstacles and trials that He has placed in my life

filming for NDP

hehe yaya, just a short sharing abt my shoot ytd :)
i tweeted it and hehe
sigh guess what? i was the only girl who wore skirt there
and imagine skirt and safety vest and helmet OH GAWD! hahahahha

anyway i was so excited as we hopped onto the van and it drove us to the port
gosh i miss the port so much, made me remembered those fun times i had spent there with the ppl also during my internship
they drove us all the way to the edge of the port side
got down and wore the vest and helmet and adjust my hair
THANK GOD my hair was in good form hehe so happy and i was glad that i wore heels cos if i didnt i will be positioned in the front to do the shoot which was not really a good thing as i was wearing skirt
and having the heels, it made me known as the tallest girl there hahahah

met jacquelyn from Accounting hehe, it was such a good opportunity to like bond with her through this
went with one of my colleagues as well there, Janice
and the shoot ended within like 30 mins only OMG
when the manager said three hours hahaha false hope to the max!

ok TAKE 1! ACTION! GO!
... (and we recite the pledge) ...
it was such a fun experience and getting to know how actors or shows are being filmed
everyone especially those in my dept were all so excited for me and so eager to know how was the shoot going hehe
i am so glad that GOD has given me this opportunity to be selected to learn from this and perhaps, made new friends hehe
love that moment
ok i shall not spoil any surprises but just to let you know the film will be released in shaw cinemas advertisements, shopping malls which have video walls and SIA flight entertainment system so yeah, catch me and my colleagues as we represent PSA to wish all Singaporeans a Happy National Day :)
- ok, i think i just spoiled the surprise but haiyah dont say den how your know hahahaha

My only dream that i wished in PSA has come true!!!!

OMG DEAREST READERS, THE MOMENT I RECEIVED THIS NEWS, I WAS SO EXCITED TO BLOG ABT THIS!!!!!!!!
I got selected to represented PSA to like be featured for National Day, like filming us to take the pledge etc
OMG, THIS IS LIKE A BIG AND GOOD EXPERIENCE FOR ME & I AM SO SO SO HAPPY TO BE PART OF IT!!
and heard that my boss and manager were more than supportive to allow me to be involved HAHAHA YAY YAY YAY!!!!!!
this is worth a celebration mann although you all may seem that i am like exaggerating AND YES I AM AND I WISH I CAN EXAGGERATE FURTHER hahaha
and my colleague was like, woah someone model alr ah
HAHAHAH aiyah no la, how can? i deserve mehhhh
HAHAHAHAHA ok that was so fake
ANYWAY I AM JUST SO SO HAPPY! HAHAHAHA

Saturday.Sunday.Monday - crazy schedule coming on the way

going back to sunday church service made me realised how much i miss church once again
i dont know why but the feeling was like "omg, it has been such a long time ever since i attend church service alr'
hahaha, church has been something I will crave every sunday
I love church
I love the ppl there, i hope i can love more
I love why am i there for

melva told me his secret and actually deep inside, I am proud of him haha
well done brother!!! you can do it and i will support you HAHA
although it was shocking and funny :)

today is monday
i dont know why, ppl kept telling me,
"sian, monday blues"
"sophia, i got monday blues"
"no wonder, cos monday what"
oh hmmm, i never ever experience monday leh HAHA
i always think tuesday is the worst HAHAA dont know cos i feel like when you are working, tuesday is a super extra day to fit into the week

sigh, miss the temps, real much
although i just started working, i never forget the joys that they brought
Nathan Chiang
Szehowe
Nicholas Tong
Nicholas Chiang (nathan's brother)
Nicholas Foo
yay!! yes all guys like DUHH hahahaha but they are fun and funny ppl
and they will be missed :)
all the best in your future endeavours, God Bless

saturday was a rushing day:
rushed to meet up (RAND6M^2)+1   - yeah actually this is the real name of my clique
guess where do i stand
hahaha i am actually the "+1"
hahha sounds extra right? haha but no la cos it was suppose to be RAND6M at first
den ^2 is becos Jescinda and Kelly were added into it and i was different class from all of them so in the end, instead of being added, i was ADOPTED into the family
hahaha with papa FELICIA and mama JOANNA and the sisters and brother NICH banana and KIWI IS ME !!!!
prepared rach's bday presents and took polaroid shots hehe
and couldnt meet her but to bid her farewell through the phone
well at least i was "visible" to her through the polaroid

met eugene at haw par villa and off he led me to his church performance
i was so excited to watch it haha
and woah seh met nathan chiang leh and nich chiang too
gosh, what a good place to catch up haha
talked for a while and made quite a few friends like Zeno, Jacob, Edmund, Jessyln (who sang very well), Sarah, Javen, jaden, Eugene Chan, Terry, Jun Wei, Andre and i know there were twins and one more brother
HAHAHAHHAHAHA sorry! i suck at memorising names but knowing all these is called A SUCCESS to me alr haha
anyway the church was really small compared to the two churches i had been
but the performance was to me - simple
just felt that it was kinda cute? HAHAHA yeah very cute and the kids too hahahah
thank you Eugene and Nicholas for inviting me :)
had dinner with them and Ben's and Jerry :) hehe

and Sunday i ate chicken HAHAHAHAH
Kk, got to work now :)
signing off ppl :)

I HOPE ...

I hope...

I hope that time will pass faster

things will get smoother

bad things will be over

I will be happier ~

I wish ...

I wish time at night will be longer

not that freedom can be lesser

everyone can understand better

our love can be greater

I wish, and I hope ... But it was just a dream ...

I love my dad...

Hi everyone, i helped my dad to squeeze his blackheads hahahaha
and he was so willing to allow me to

i am back to blog alr and i am kinda excited to blog abt attending for Emma's dance concert
it was amazing, went on a wednesday hehe :)
well, overall, i felt that western dance were the best
there was one which at first i thought it was a zombie dance piece as the dancers were wearing a white night dress with all their hair let down, some even sprayed it to make it like a mad scientist who just did a wrong experiment kind HAHA
and as they dance, there were like sharp and quick movements of flipping hair here and there
(it was in remembrance of ppl who suffered in the tsunami)
i didnt really see any link but the music was really like into zombie style haha

another western dance piece was abt TELEPHONE
a group of dancers literally carried out a big box - telephone booth
and the dance piece presented two ways of communication comparing the past and the present
like cups and string and the phone booth
it was pretty cool
(it was in remembrance of how important communication was)

the last western dance piece was abt students preparing for exams
the dancers were dressed in their uniform and each of them carrying a table on stage
i was thinking, hmmm what can tables do to make a dance piece amazing? how much can you dance with the tables
and to my surprise, the dance piece was pretty amazing HAHA
they had formations and dance portrayed the feeling of how students feel when they attend for exams
IT WAS GOOD!

there were indian malay and chinese dance
i felt that the chinese dance were at least somewhat better compared to the indian and malay dances, however the music they played was too ear-blasting to the core, i almost became deaf, not exaggerating here
and sorry to say, i nearly fell asleep for the malay and the indian dance hmmmmm
melinda said it was boring so yeah HAHAHAH not sophia say horh

so overall, western is the best! i love it really! its more into the dance i would love to dance and perform
also somehow like hsinyi (my executive) 's kind of contemporary dance :)

work has been getting better and better as this week i find it kinda fulfilling for me
more meaningful work to do la, i wont say what i did for the past few months arent meaningful but there is some level of value there though
and i am starting to enjoy them much nowadays
i have been waiting for this feeling to come mann and yes THANK GOD!
however, dont think everything is perfect, not all work i am in charge of are enjoyable
although yea but somewhere down the road, i just feel that there are some tasks which are erm, kind... i dont feel like doing it la
but well, this is not a childcare centre but in a working environment so i cant say i choose to do this but not this so yeah
and its the attitude lorh

during my first few weeks, i ever asked eugene like hows ur work, is it boring or dont feel like doing kind of thing becos during that period i was doing something i hate to do, which is to read and digest rules and regulations etc and he told me its the attitude towards work lorh which the answer really turned me off but well, i am going to say the same thing as him lorh
its the attitude towards work, sometimes i just told myself no choice, just have to do den i will do it better than having an unwilling heart to do right?
THIS IS LIFE :)

but there are nice people around which i do appreciate
but sometimes i think i appreciated too much to an extent that some ppl kept clinging onto me and just get me involved into certain unnecessary things -.-
sigh, are you all living the same life as me? i hope not :X

but still appreciate life and move on :) stay happy !!! hehe :P

ever thought of being an events manager?

(suppose to be posted on monday and i kinda edited it on wednesday hehe)
well, i ever thought of being an event manager though
organising events and communicating everything to go well as planned
its fun, something like what i see when i do in hotel
and the tensity that comes out from it and learning how to solve certain problems can be really really fun too hehe!!
had the SAF day today and yeah, although the messed up feeling was really sucky but i overcame it
and met a person who knows me but i dont HAHA how joke
sorry la PSA too big alr
Bee Eng, one of the PAs, asked me what i may be interested in, well i went honest with her and told her abt this though so yeah, but not saying that i totally hate what i am doing but i am more or less having things in hands to handle alr, and each of these, i take it as a training for me :)

anyway, want to share a good news
I WILL BE INVOLVED IN SINGING FOR THE AUG EVENT
its called the YZ/YAM Evangelistic event, for now la
i know there is a theme for it though
OMG so excited!! I would really like to invite my friends for it though hehe, my colleagues and everyone who is reading this blog are also invited
and I am so excited for it!!!!
anyway, ytd, julia whatsapped me to say that i will be involved in 2 more songs, may need my voice HAHA
ok, its kinda getting stress now cos i got to learn 3 songs in a month and practice it though
really need need need time management

probation period is going to be over, which also reminds me that I WILL BE GOING TO BANGKOK!!!!
WOOHOO~! ok to be direct here, is to celebrate my birthday la, taking it as a get away too
getting out of Singapore could be one of those blissful things i am asking for

I am so happy today, hehe had lunch with jo, super random but this is also why we are called Rand6m right? pronouncing it, is Random Six.
so yeah, so happy and kinda surprising too, take care yo~!
work is getting so so so busy but i really do appreciate it that you understood me well enough haha

I am a sinner

woah, my pageviews hit 1552 this year
since january when i first started off until now 24 June, its considered alot dont know is either who kept refreshing my blog hahahaha no la, yay!!! good good, thank you readers :)
although the amount of pageviews is not money but supporters are good enough to earn :)

anyway, i was so happy!!
saturday, it was my first time to go to JEM and had lunch at PEPPER LUNCH
well, i am not really a rice person ever since the end of my internship, i have been eating rice and it gave me weight! boohoo to rice!
and i was so happy that they actually had pasta there
and yes mann!!! fulfilled my crave for PRAWN AGLIO OLIO
did you see my fb? ahahhaa nvm see or dont see, i will still post it here

and here you go :

with instagram filter MUAHAHAH, doesnt it look so gooooooooood to taste it?

"slurp slurp"

the best.. er hem! non-spicy PRAWN AGLIO OLIO :)

they even provided onions woohoo and the prawns are super fresh, and yes scallop too, super nice

spaghetti whosh HAHAHA

$11.90, WORTH THE TRY

and i would like to try their carbonara next time, like hmm mushroom sauce spaghetti :)

other food there which includes rice are ard $9.90, less than $10

later on, went to H&M woah best! i really really love H&M hahaha

cos the clothes are really cheap although some were really super ridiculously high

i miss shopping and anyway got myself a burgundy dress - for my friend's 21st birthday party (theme was purple, but i think burgundy was good enough alr, $17.90 NIAAAAAA)

hahaha

JEM is my second paradise la, just that a little hard to find food,except upstairs but some are just like erm like 2 restaurants at each level that kind
and and and i found a few shops which sell blogshop items OMG
It just got me so excited to be there and take my time to choose my clothes yo
HAHAHA

Sunday: YAY VERA IS BACK YO~!
i was so happy to see my leader once again after ......... 10 months? HAHAHA
cos i left for china and when i came back, she left to London a few days before i came back ahahha
we parted for 10 months, close to a year and i really really missed her
gave her a hug and she asked me hows life and everything, i missed being pampered by church leaders hehe
and there was a workshop, super cool!
teaching us on how to approach like non-christians and all and i felt that it was a super useful workshop :)
yeah and so i kinda whatsapp nine ppl abt if christians portrayed themselves as imposing and all
ahahah and yes, at least some of them replied HAHA

had a shopping spreee and mooovvviieeeeeeee woohoo!! and I met claudia :)

hahaha i dont know how to end this post so yeah hahaha hello and bye :)
- going to meet maisie on wednesday which i am so so so excited for! it has been 9 months and long enough :)

hows life?

Hi, I AM BACK AGAIN!
i just cant wait for friday to END, as in not even waiting for it to come this time round
well life has been ............... TIRING?
real tired, dont know but now i am really in the mood or rather discipline to save money haha
will feel guilty if i spend too much on food
hmm shopping? maybe can spend cos haven been shopping for a while alr HAHA
do I make sense?
well, i always dont HAHA!

recently, edwin asked me a question, do i spend more money on food? or clothes?
well, my answer was i ever spent more on food and ever spent more on clothes BUT for now, i just spend what i need or want
but after thinking abt it for a few days and now with the GSS, i think i am still into spending more on shopping than food
i ever remember last time i was so obsessed to shop to an extent that i even used my food money to pay for it and i didnt regret because it was a matter of fact that as long as i get what i want

and now, working alr, i cant believe that i even bear to spend so much money just buying clothes of popular or common brands last time
like for example, one normal top from Pull n Bear with a printing on it, it ranges from maybe lets say $19.90 to $39.90, last time i dont mind spending just on 29.90 but now is like when i see it, its so ex and immediate heartpain HAHA
cos now i am just more into blogshopping and paying through card so the pain is not there
well, i did spent some time to even buy things that are lesser than 20 and look nice HAHA
thats called smart but now i have been so busy so yeah, seeing when i am free to shop
shop as in go to shopping malls to shop but not blogshop haahha i can blogshop anytime

can i also say i miss splurging/spending money? hahah the luxurious feeling to spend money and make urself feel so rich and all
i miss sleeping too!!! i miss my drama which i alr finished watching like what the?! oh wells sigh
life has been good and i believed it can be better and could have been better :)

God Bless everyone !!

PS: just a random blog post.

Sunday is always one of the days that I am looking forward to

Hi, it was a Sunday like erm, ytd that i sat with Timothy (the cheerful guy that i called in church) for combined service..
it wasnt really an obvious announcement that it was combined service - celebrating Happy Father's Day!!
hehe, and as the sermon was given, i just had some flashbacks about my past
oh wells, it was never the same as some girls in the world to celebrate both mother's and father's day
its somehow interlink for me
some of you may know me or not so well
but yes, my mum passed away when i was ard 6 years old? or 5?
and i know i have been repeating this like quite a few times in my blog posts but yeah i am fine and i dont mind sharing, i may or may not know you readers but yes, i always appreciate the fact that you bothered to even read my story
ok and so, i had a stepmum when i was 8 and yeah, typical stepmums are not easy to get along with
and so, i always described myself as a Cinderella and perhaps my prince charming will come and find me "with that right pair of glass slipper"
HAHAHAHAA
well, i received comments from friends and ppl that i am strong blah, despite all these i am still cheerful and strong blah, but haiyah, what to say abt this is that i am kinda used to it but i wont deny the fact that i do miss my mum more and more as i grow older
my dad and i are super close, we can share everything in the world, and yeah, life has not been good for him though and he always praised me that my character and actions always remind him of his former wife.. but, what can i do? but i always feel proud and honored to be his daughter who reminds him of her
not that it will make him sad but it just allow him to "feel her presence", you ppl get what i mean right?
yeah he has been thankful to have me as a daughter.. you ppl must be wondering how you know how he feel towards you, well, we are father and daughter for a reason :)

either of these days (mother's and father's days), the focus for me will always be on my parents :X
well, i do reflect on my lives sometimes, last time used to reflect alot but now is like lesser
ok, i am not planning to make this an emo blog post ok?
haha anyway after service, went to my dad's church to surprise him with a muffin that i got from my church ahahah
how sweet it will be if i was the one who made it
and he was teaching, i reached in time and kinda overheard what he taught his students
to my surprise, he mentioned both my bro and i, how were our journeys walking with Christ and all
gosh, i felt touched, does he always do this every sunday? i wonder, i wished hahah
and he actually told me that he was touched when i asked him if he was, can tell is sincere HAHA

SALES SALES SALES !!!
gosh, there are sales like everywhere and i am so happy cos most stuffs are cheap and cant wait to get them all ahahha
people, pls go and shop! its the right time for you people to splurge :)

I. AM. SO. BORED. 


PS: I miss my ballerina blog alot, i feel that it has so much of memories and fun :')

Life Changed

life changes for everyone of us living in this world (DUHH)
well, i want to thank God for everything to allow changes to be placed in my life
apparently, i am not really into an enthusiastic mood to share abt what changes or stuff but just really want to thank God for always guiding me through my life and that optimism in me that brings out that cheerful spirit that i always present myself to others
ok, i can share a bit bit la, it wasnt easy as i thought to take up more responsibilities nowadays
now i am like managing my working time tgt with my night time for prep bible study, and taking care of the family admins alr hahaha MACHIAM wife to be SIOH~!
yeah, going to move house and helping my grandma to read letters or plan to see furnitures, taking care of my brother in school or work and all, like maybe taking over a quarter of my dad's responsibility as a mini breadwinner in the family
bible study: that motivation whereby you have to do it every week and thinking abt it everyday is not at all blissful for the start and den i came to realise that i am forcing myself to do but i am not handling it in a good way as a servant for the Lord
i prayed, for my intentions to be right, for my priorities in life to always place God first no matter what
yes i admit, the time i used to declare FREE is limited alr, i am not as free as the past Sophia used to be
i will think what i need to do for the day and things need to be considered
i really want to earn that understanding from ppl... cos is more of placing God first
i may fall short or what but i want to strive to what i can even at my last breath to glorify Him
ask yourselves Christians, what have you all been doing? wandering abt to here and there, does it get you to anywhere? have you been praying to God? and how has God guide you and all?

my answer: I have been struggling a little with time management but still considered smooth as i get my things done, i am not wandering becos i dont even have the time to, i am packed with upcoming things to do, i have been relying and depending more on God each day (i hope this doesnt dies), HE IS ALWAYS GUIDING ME and i am grateful for that always
going to church on a sunday is the best day i can ever asked for in a week :)

Family!
I have never been a person to read the newspaper unless its something that interest me
well, let me share ....
the only time i touch a newspaper is when i am reading the tv timetable
gosh, if you are my parents or boss, confirm will give me one tight slap ahhahaa
another time when i touch a newspaper will be when there are scandalous cases of celebrities or extreme murderous cases...
i am not a person who is able to allow HOUSING BLOCK, ECONOMIC CRISIS, POLITICIANS, WORKER'S PARTY blah into my mind (maybe allow but can never remember)
CPF, NFK, BUYING HOUSE, stock market here and there or buying car, financial analysis ETC
I am not a news person, and so taking up such responsibilities can be a little struggle and unwilling
but for now, is like CPF and buying house la so have my dad still ok HAHA
recently, i heard that my brother lost some money and it somehow just struck me that i have the responsibility to know what happen or how (taking care of this matter which my dad had no clear idea abt)
as some of you may know that i dont stay with my parents, i am staying with my grandma and my brother in a flat, going to move out soon somewhere this month or next
yup, so this is family, moving on

Life! (this covers alot so i am just going to say this much)
i should stop complaining and work towards what is upcoming to me
I would want to thank God that i kinda found my happiness
my blissful period of my life has began but there are definitely feelings of uncertainty which i want to commit and submit them all to God
well, as God is my creator, i lift my burdens to Him, not just becos I belong to Him but He is definitely my One and Only Saviour whom i can approach to

Blog!
and due to the fact that i haven been blogging as regularly as last time in my previous blog, i am sure my readers really went down the scale yeah
i do explain things in my blog so if you guys didnt read or what, i am sorry but dont blame me for things that i cant do becos i have said and you didnt take the effort to know as how you did last time
all i want is one word: UNDERSTANDING
its easy but it seems really hard for some ppl in this world to even do it
plus even if i dont explain in my blog, i am sure by human nature, we shld understand one another
and i am not saying on my own perspective, i am saying this on the behalf of alot of ppl
and i do know that we all have our own principles and standards of expectations but please do make the effort to UNDERSTAND
and i wont push all the way for stubborn ppl who refuses to do it, i did my part and sorry to say but i have other better things to do besides all these

well, its a blessing to be able to rejoice and look forward to the upcomings in the future
entering into working life is like into a new world for me, totally~
I am grateful to live no matter how life sucks becos God is with me!
haahha and i really miss maisie, it has been super long since we last met in August 2012!!! :O HAHAHA

One thing i love abt friends and i want to achieve is:
Rejoice with those who rejoice,
mourn with those who mourn.

Grateful & Thankful :)

It's only when one day when someone just asked how have you been and you both started talking and you came to realise.. so these are the pile of problems I have and am facing.. Alone?

Hahaha what a quote that I don't really want to post on Facebook hahah but it's true :)

Thank you so much for asking and allowing me to talk things out to realise how little I did for myself when putting so many 'others' above me but it's life and I do stay strong and positive and I do thank God for creating me in such a way that I do have a hyper and cheerful spirit always to make others happy

I am grateful and thankful :)

who is missing me ah? miss until so crazy, i cant stop sneezing OMG -.-

feeling so sick right now..............

i really wish that the day could end FASTER
how i wish we all dont have to work and money just drop from the sky ahhaha
what a wishful thinking

CANT WAIT FOR GRADUATION CEREMONY!!!

This Blog IS NOT dying

ytd morning, just when i came and sat on my chair with both hands placed on my desk....
Amanda walked towards me and asked is this the time that i usually report to work
well i know i officially start at 830am but i will still come at 8am ahhaha dont know why too
and she asked IF I WANTED BREAKFAST AND THAT SHE COULD GO DOWN AND GET FOR ME
omg, can you imagine how touched i was :')
although she is like an AM and i am like a super small fry in this company and she was so willing to even do things like this for me
and i am being appreciative here again becos this isnt something that is by force but out of the heart
and i am not saying as if whoever is asking me for breakfast and i will be touched by it
no, i know who are doing this out of will out of their sincere hearts :)
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THAT THOUGHT
well, company is full of politics not that i dont know but i always would like to take the opportunity to understand ppl despite their position, not that i had heart to heart talk or what but i feel that it is very important to understand one and from there you know how to approach the person with the appropriate method to get things done and leaving a happy ending :)
do you guys agree?
UNDERSTANDING someone makes things easier but doing it can be so super hard
with that, you will need PATIENCE
and coming along with patience, you will need POSITIVITY + CHEERFUL SPIRIT which i think i am somehow there alr hahahahah
i can never stop smiling, not that anything bad happens and that the world is going to end
well, i dont conquer problems alone but with God's strength which worked through me and i am proud to even say this here :) why not?

yay!!! how fast is this year going to end?
time is so so so still as selfish as before HAHA
going to have a final PSA staff games NETBALL MATCH this coming thursday
ARMOURS UP YO~!
but sigh, either 3rd or 4th , somemore competing with our sub-group ahahah joke of the joke mann

so SMILE, take it as every minute you are facing a camera hahaha

CHINA AUTUMN OUTFIT

Loving myself more is more than any grateful thing I would want to thank God for :)

it is a good day for me to finally get back to blogging

I feel more than blessed nowadays and i dont want to stop thanking God for everything

I may not know whats going to happen in the future but I am eager to let God make it happen

be it good or bad, I want to accept it WILLINGLY :)

Being THANKFUL :

I want to thank God for friends

every single friend, treasurable ones too, active and social colleagues hehe

and every single one from PPT who STILL remembered me and recognised me

I really really from my heart, hahaha appreciate that you all still remember me

I am happy that besides all these friends who do hold that sentimental value in my heart, I still have my family

recent days, things have been kinda not say exciting but I am so eager to always spend time with them although there isnt a perfect time to :P

apart from these, I want to THANK GOD THE MOST for guiding and seeing me through my serving in church

I am so proud to be who I am right now and that I am leading BIBLE study so smoothly and i dont wish to break that momentum and enthusiasm for God

taking a break from preparing bs but to blog today :)

there is just so many things that I want to thank God for

and also, not forgetting work, my value is adding up and it can never stop adding

I am so happy that everything is going as smooth for me but I should also never stop rejoicing if bad stuff comes in the way

still, I still want to thank my ONE and ONLY GOD :)

recently, in the month of april, i sprained my ankles 4 times

3 times on the right and 1 for the left

very SUAY right? I KNOW RIGHT!

BUT IT STILL DIDNT STOP ME FROM PLAYING NETBALL

you guys may think that I am crazy or stubborn, but i dont know la

if I really cant play, I wont la

if i still can, I will still

and sometimes i do felt helpless and useless when i cant even work my legs out

like running faster, dancing more graceful den ever or even run for the ball

but one thing that i do believe is that God does not only just give me a pair of legs to use them

He gave me a voice to sing, sing for Him

and i felt that my voice has become firmer and I am so thankful for that

so even if i cant walk or what, i do have another gift to praise Him with, a mouth full of His teachings to care, share and shower love to the people around me

looking back in my life, i do reflect abt it

I have seen myself grow, things have been better and I have become more of an appreciative person

and that cheerful spirit in me NEVER die down

and that was actually one of the main reasons that ppl still do recognise me :)

met Alex that day during one of my colleagues sports matches, i asked him how are the new interns doing

and he said this "ok la, but lack in something, not as cheerful as you lorh"

HAHAHAHAHA, met lina a few times too and i was really so happy to see her!!!

met the cute lee seng and he still remember how i ever communicate to the logistics ppl during my internship

TWEESE YO~!

be happy no matter what, do not be demanding, be contented with what you have

set goals and targets for yourself, bring up your spirit for self-motivation and self-discipline

patience in waiting for God's instructions, accept falls and failures and never be too prideful

Gerald you are so awesome!!!!

Omg I am so blessed to have such a wonderful manager who actually bought this for me for my bs preparation material hehe
Thank you so so much Gerald!

the obstacle

Haha, I am scared of you becos you arent friendly

Reflect...

I want to declare that I want to prioritize God first
Friends, I hope you can understand this becos it is not easy for me to manage church and all outings smoothly when I am working and all.. Not easy at all and it's super stress.. The feeling which I hate and needed God most!
So just saying in advance in any case that I won't be able to make it for outings or worse still Dont even ask me to plan, God comes first and just first and nothing else.. Alright? Had a deep talk session with my dad and really felt disappointed with myself that I am unable to manage all these and please God

For now I am just trying to settle down and ponder things in life! Life has been busy, nothing but busy with so many activities that I don't even have time for God, hope you guys are understanding cos I do believe I make understand friends :)
If you guys are bored, perhaps take some time to maybe just encourage me ok? I know I may kinda ask for too many requests but I really need them somehow now and during this period of pondering and reflecting
I don't want to leave God and I don't want God to leave me becos I need Him!
Sigh really feeling down nowadays and hope I can manage my time better within this trial kind of thing :')
Goodnight :)

today is 28th March

tmr is good friday and one thing to thank for is that its the last day of work for this week
well, practically for most of us i guess

things to repent just made me want to blog right now
using this extra time that i have
i have heard many stories and also will never forget my own story that God has created for me
my story, i am proud to share my story
my story has brought me life
this story in me has changed me
it consists of many many characters and props
it consists of miracles and wonders with dreams
it also consists of someone important, God :)

whenever i asked someone, what is the world like
most answers will be  - the world is never fair, nothing in this world is free, no one gets what they want
due to humans' desires for their own pleasure and nothing is ever FAIR in this world
broken relationship, financial problem, spoilt friendship, family issues etc
this all sums up my story?

I made many mistakes in life despite i can rank them from top to bottom
thank God that I didnt murder or what
thank God for always being there for me
there are ppl in my life who has caused my troubles but what am i suppose to do
i seemed to be sinful just to accommodate with them and neglecting God aside

this is the day and the time to perfectly repent for my sins
God, I had neglected You, You werent of my first priority
something that i am too ashamed to share, something which i dont deserve a good life
sometimes i asked why am i living in this world
come on, this shldnt be a question to why is my mind is so negative -.-
God gave me a life to glorify Him
but I am doing things that does not please Him AT ALL!

life is study, study, study/work, work (what I am now)
there are many many important and treasurable ppl in my life
one whom I respect most, is my dad
i indeed learnt alot from him and has yet to learn totally all, i need him in my life (not really a good thing)
another two who are important in my life forever, my former mother (my dad kept saying the more i grow, the more i am like just like her) and my grandmother
you guys must be thinking and asking, what about my stepmum
well, she is like a person whom i can respect but i am not close with her, thats all
my brother has never fail to cheer me up although he has been those typical "annoying" kind but i do appreciate his effort and nature to be my brother
life has its stages which served as stepping stones for us to be able to reach to the end until we die
through these, God has always been grateful to me as i was stepping
and i want to tell you all, that this is not just it that ends ur life
there are so many things to be thankful for
there are also alot of bo liao ppl disturbing you, you just need to know how to play the game
there are so many things i have yet to appreciate
your answers may be there are so many types of food i have yet to try
there are so many other activities i have yet to try out
there are so many places i want to go
but why not thank God that He gave you a chance to live ur life to make the fullest
defining fullest as an extend of how God want you to live your life :)

times up! i shall stop blogging now :)
have a Good Friday and Easter Day :)
think and reflect about your life of what have you done
right or wrong? happening now or past? what did you gain? did you learn anything out from it?
how can you improve ur lfie better? are there memories need to be kept or thrown aside? are there things you need to keep or get rid of? worth? happy or not? are you living how God want you to live?
march is ending soon, and I am glad that 31st March falls on Easter
~signing off~

Random and words before pictures

Back den when my hair was black :)

Finally met up with Gisele and Vanessa haha :)

Haha 'tap tap',
Whose there? 'Turn turn'
Oooh, it's Nicholas Tong!
Hi :)

Impact of my company

My one and a half months work duration has caused me to have 11 pimples! Best! Beautician, thank goodness I am meeting you today :)

12th March, JO's birthday, Jiayou nich!!!

Happy Birthday to you JOANNA nanananana!!!!!
hehe, like happy girl only
you are 20 alr leh, sian, when my turn comes, i will feel more sad-old HAHA
i miss being 16 and 19, these two years were like my best years or all

anyway, today, nich is going to face an operation so lets keep him in prayers ok?
like the surgeon will know what/how to process this situation, and that he will stay calm and God will definitely be with him, so have faith my friend :)

today is a battle worth battling
I am starting to enjoy my work better and hope that this will continue cos who knows what will happen next?
even melinda doesnt so keep up my head high and work forward
I am currently doing an investigation job which seems more interesting compared to just research and information analysis hehe

and I had learnt how to cycle!!! woohoo~
sian, plan was to wait to get a bf den teach me one but den now know alr so it also means to say hahahhahaha
yeah lorh but its ok, better than i dont know right?
now having hard time moving about in the office, cant sit like immediately, got to be slower and all hehe

now my days are like just letting them passing by, day by day, step by step
i dont know whats going to happen the next minute kind of thing
super busy, tiring and sometimes rushing
its like now schedules are just work, sleep, meeting friends, preparing bs and all
with all these, it totally took up like one whole week without proper rest and i do understand and got to expect that this will happen somehow
--- not forgetting beautician appointment, etc etc etc, practically is just going out to different places with different people, yeah!

so yup! I am still strong and forever strong, standing alone with the Almighty God's guidance and i do believe, He has been watching over me and all of us here hehe
my blogviews have been increasingly increasing, its a good thing but bad thing is that i dont really have a time to find to blog, like really blog, for now is just like parts and pieces but i am sure when i have the time to, i will, yup yup!!

thanks for those who has always been supporting me, love you all :)

Monday no blues woohoo~!

What the?! I want to represent PSA for photoshoot too!!!!!!!!!! :)

Church I miss you!

1st March has granted me with a runny nose a flu :)
Haha today like ok la, work was fine and all.. Hurry rushed things den leave alr HAHAHAHAHA
Thank you so much Janice for putting me in charge of distributing the PSA lanyards within my department,even my manager was shocked how come he didn't know, cos.... You didn't know lorh? haha and ppl started placing their orders of colours

Haha almost everyday, I have ppl coming to me asking me how I do my hair or do u have a bf cos at my age is the dating period hahaha, Chey!
It's ok, as long as these made me feel young :)

Going to meet sue now for Atas bar session hehe :)

at the 37th floor

sigh, its kinda sad like i have two of my colleagues like gone? hahha both gone for a week but i guess it was in a good way that made me strong
i meant like i am that kind need ppl to be seated where they are suppose to sit in office and all den i will feel secure but apparently, this served as a challenge for me

hahaha forgot to say, saw Lin Ting at one of the food courts he went with adrian and one more friend
sigh, from far la so didnt say hi, wonder if he would recognise me haha

orientation was kinda fun, met two girls working in PPT 1 and asked one of them to help me say HI to Lina
and becos she only knows that her manager was lina so yeah ahhaa
and Lina was so sweet, she had a talk with my manager a few days back and before she hung up the phone, she said "oh help me say hi back to sophia"
HAHAHAHA WOAH LINA!!!! you are so sweet mann!! hahaa
really miss working in the ops and the people whom i worked with before
memories kept in heart, always remembering you guys and the hard work for fish as well
heard that i will be working with you guys again through HR post but still, yeah keep in touch
work is work hehe!

i love to use my office phone, dont know leh, so cool
i love to direct calls, i love to call, but i am scared to pick up calls, hahaha but ok la
today's work was fine and i am loving it becos i ever told kenny before i go for HR, i want to become like Lina and yeah hahahha
today i came back home, told my dad "i talked like lina today" ahhah joke!
was talking sense to my manager about the manpower and all woah, like got value only!
really really miss ops! one thing i didnt miss much was radioset, thats all!
all the fun laughter peace and joy and also not forgetting psa toilet! ahhaha
so far my psa building's toilet is clean la and nice to use hahahha
and today is one of my best days, learning more excel formula, its so cool mann!!!
love excel, even when i just made a correct move, A correct move, just one step, i can like scream and shout for joy
and today, manager called me over, i went meeting him and started to giggle, i also dont know why
hahahhaa and i guess that giggle made everyone's day haha
he should send me fish lorh, i made their day

and and i got to say, in a non-humble way, that my popularity in psa building 37th floor went up high enough than i expected
not becos of my name, not becos of what am i working on or who i am under but becos of one simple reason, not my face but my HAIR
hahahah you all may wonder... what? HAIR? YES MY HAIR helped me gain my popularity
i have people whom i dont know came to me, asked me how i did my hair, it was so amazingly done and all
getting all the praises for my hair hahahhaa
and some aunties purposely tried to imitate my hair style by clipping here and there den showing to my manager asking, "hey like sophia's hair right?" den my manager went like errrrrrr
hahahah so cute! they kept asking "how i manage to style my hair"
even eugene made sense to it, hahah ok la i believe you la
he said he really liked my hair, the way it was being styled and all ahhhaa
good! for hair!

going to have an outing with sue tmr
and she is going to bring me to a bar
i kinda rejected her offer to go to a club but she understoood my situation as in i also have a dad who doesnt even want me to think abt it so yeah, might as well also dont go
i am fine with bars, more atas, high class, nice place to chill and all hehe

tuesday went out with jo and yeah, htht lorh, shld keep her and her family in prayers yeah
wednesday went out with rachel and opps, yup! knew something and good that i know, thank you so much!

bye people, tmr is a FRIDAY! YEAH! FISH!Y FRIDAY for HRDIANS hahahaha

Motivation Encouragement

Be mindful that each person is unique. We have different talents and strengths and different backgrounds. So it does not make sense to compare ourselves with anyone else - Dr Elizabeth Nair, principal psychologist at Work and Health Psychologists.

One more thing to add, i know I am not a political, economical, or worldly person

worldly i meant as in like not that kind between spiritual and worldly

as in those like i dont even know about the world that kind

BUT.. Singapore is going to build a high speed rail station, yay!!! its good that we are progressing, hahaha like China hehe :P but good to have one at least, not saying copy but making us more developed and like "everything also have" that kind of thing

ok, i dont really know how to describe news on my blog but yeah!

ytd wasnt as good day as i thought but it somehow does encourages me to look forward to the next day

as what paul said in Romans 5:3-5,

"Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us."

song bo? haha I know right! God has been so awesome to me :)

Learn to be Thankful

I know that I may not be performing up to your expectation but knowing that I know where I kinda stand.. Thank you for giving me that level of assurance and comfort, thank you :)

Review of Feb's third week

Hello,
wow exactly like a week plus a day since i last blogged
oh wells, have been busy and all so dont really have the time to blog
life now is like just work, home, whatsapp, sleep
OR work, meet up with friends, whatsapp, sleep
hahaha whatsapp has been involved in my life... partially! sighs!
back to where i blogged was wednesday right? well forgot what happened on thursday and friday but i knew that i had something to do, still working on the research and all
its a major project duh~!

** lazy to text ppl abt my new number :P super!

monday! anyway, wore a studded dress (18 feb)
had a rushing rush after work to meet up with jarell and friends to take picture
as she will be flying off to australia soon so yeah lorh
dad rushed too :( had dinner blahs

tuesday! it was an important day when i didnt dress well
hehe, i got involved in the union meeting whereby i saw all of the CEOs, COOs, and all high ranking ppl
woah, thank you Gerald for letting me to be exposed into this kind of environment
totally reminds me of ritz carlton plus a very important meeting which consist of high values which i need to earn for myself
met choy lin, philbert, eddy, even bala, hahaha they all remembered and recognised me surprisingly like WOAH, SO PROUD OF MYSELF, kept shaking new hands and all, a few ppl bothered to talk to me as they claimed that i looked new, well it is true that i do looked new ahahhaha
thank you all friendly high valued people haha :)
thank you Hsin Yi (my senior, known as) that she showed me around here and all
and can you guys believe it? i did and prepared a YU SHENG all by myself, so proud leh hehe
anyway that night didnt really started off well for me but it ended superbly awesome for me :)
thanks to my managers and all, and Kevin (head of HR) was telling me "i saw you blinking tonight"
haha was at lost of words but i did said "haha, thank you" with a shy tone -.-
it was brilliant experiencing this gathering and also chatted with one of the union members named Evelyn :)
Gerald introduced her to me and we begin talking and on and on and like somehow became friends, woah she even wanted me to attend major meetings mann, how can? i am so small hahaha but that leaves up to my manager though
tuesday was awesome experience! and philbert padded me on the shoulder saying "hey, take care" before he left, and i was like shocked but remain somehow as his friend kind of thing, hold back his arm and said "ok, thank you, you too!"
yay!! my wish was fulfilled, we are best friends? HAHAHAHAH
by the way, in case you all dont know who philbert is, he is the VP for my terminal during my intern
eddy was the formal VP back then but he still remembers me, and i am touched for it
thank you all

wednesday! met up with aaron!!

work was fine or so :) had an important meeting with 4 managers like WOAH! haha
a little stress and i did a mini presentation, well, so proud of myself that i presented it well, this is what i felt
calm, no stammering and all hehe
and the discussion went on and on for super long
oh no! rushing to meet aaron, left work 15mins late, no one's fault so yeah
ate at pastamania and had a long long heart talk
hahaha super long didnt catch up with him alr and actually, the whole heart talk was abt me la hahaha
i know i very bad right? and so part 2 will be up soon HAHAA
he was so nice to like advise me in a friend kind of way, not saying like this is this, you must, or you should kind of thing, no he didnt, but he was nice to advise me along :)
and he also said that he need to teach me how to drink
i need to learn how to drink, cos of company meetings and all, if just drink wine den like ppl see you so what la
i dont know but see how, that tuesday night, thanks to michelle who "could not" finish the coke light and passed it to me and in this way, no one offered me drink, thank you michelle although i am not sure if that was really ur intention
and aaron randomly said like "eh, i see like most of my friends all got bf leh, when is ur turn?"
i got stunned for a while but aiyah, for now i want to work, dont really want to find a love life now
haha pls lorh, you attached den let me know la ahhha

thursday! it was rather last minute that sue wanted a heart talk session with me

she sounded kinda poor thing over the message so yeah, met up with her and yup
her problem which requires two hands to clap kind of thing
hahaha and learnt something which made sense : it takes two hands to clap but one hand to slap HAHA
COOL OR WHAT SIA~!

and she was like "no! i want to be the only one who teaches you how to drink" after hearing that aaron is gonna teach me hahahahaha pls lorh
what the?! i always find it challenging when i dont know how to solve people's problems
its quite sad but its always good to have a listener beside someone :) dont worry sue :)
... and she was so fascinated abt my life right now haha
new clothes, new iphone, i just changed in terms of appearance and ok la, more of standing up for myself and i know right! telling ppl off but i cant be bother alr la, suffered too much in order to pull myself up to prove to others that you cant bully me and i am not born in this world for you people to find fault in me, thank you :)

friday! went to PSA vista today! for JO orientation sigh, i was the only HR plus chinese plus youngest girl there and the ppl briefing us were from HR so its just what the?1 hahahahha
main attention on me sae~ the rest were just ops ppl haha
mostly malays and i was late for a minute becos i forgot to bring my ez-link card -.-
and remember i ever said if i had a perfect time to thank Derek, and i will?
well, promised kept! i did thanked him after his briefing, and he was like touched, shocked, surprised, happy
hahah that kind of mixed facial expression
well he was nice enough to encourage me although i was late for his briefing for one minute, ahh so sorry
met most of the people who were working with me in office and briefing me hahah?
they were like "hey!" ahhaha and my colleague jocelyn, felicia and othman were worried how come i didnt report to office hehe sorry, didnt inform you all
jocelyn was so nice to get my number to whatsapp me hahaha, shes like a sister to me, always take good care of me and she loves cat like crazy mann oh mine hahaha
i love rabbits and cats too :)
took attendance during one of the briefings and gosh, awkward much
all said "operator from terminal xxx", and only me was "Sophia, HR IRD" oh mine hahaha
made two friends (girls) both from PPT 1 haha miss the people that i know :)
and i actually helped them to become friends ahhahah so joke! i was so happy abt my sociality today :)
actually met ah beng when i was rushing from the mrt haha he looked at me and looked away
as said, ever since i came back, not everyone can recognise me, they will take some time to stare at me den will recall my facial features
went to vivo cos feel like doing some shopping
sadly, no money and not much nice clothes
although i really like some but i wont wear la ahhaha

i like this jeans pattern, if you can zoom in, pls do, its like pieces of embroidery i think, is it? i know there is a name for it, whatever it is, so sweet :)

- taken in Zara

and had a funky time of my life

sigh, wanted a nice new colour but like cant find any leh

i like the colour on the ring finger

the middle finger has nude pink colour on it with a top coat of glitter which is not obvious at all

dont know why but somehow looks disturbing hahahaha

i think my life is getting more and more interesting :)

enjoy your weekends, readers, i think may blog weekly alr haha

CNY, wednesday ++

ok sum up for CNY and working days
hectically busy and the only picture i took was the dress i wore for reunion dinner on monday

haha thanks for Melody's clutch to do this add up and yes, I am using my iphone 5 right now but still lollipop as an alternative though ahha

love this dress so much, its navy blue and i got it for only $16 NIA!

This is my wednesday:
had work like what the?! really crap but was so happy as my friends were supportive enough to encourage me to persevere hehe
met up with mel, jo nich and mark at mel's hse and went to marina floating platform to celebrate CNY river hongbao
had so much fun there and i love this picture alot hehe,
also had other photos but like cant find and haven get it yet,
not mainly becos of the person beside me but the effects of it and the fun we all had tgt
this is me and nich, hahah driving in a bumper car hehe
me no license and he was screaming his lungs out, i was screaming also ahahha all stress gone! woohoo~!

had a second round sitting with jo haha and it was so fun

we kept banging mel's car and nich's car hahahahah

i drove and she took photo and video HAHAHAHAH OMG 

SO FUNNY!!! fel said " thats a cute kiwi " HAHAH YAY~

this is me and joanna, while waiting for nich -.-

and not forgetting to mention this

went for Sangeetha's birthday party celebration at Fraser Suites and did this monkey see monkey do action haha

I am so happy for what and how I am now :)