Indeed there were many things awaiting for me in Singapore :)
things just got too stress in terms of things to be handled in the family
now that I am back and that people often look for my opinion and asked me for suggestions
oh gosh, yes I felt honoured that you guys seek for my advice but the thing is that it seemed so serious to an extent that i got to take care of everything
its like parents gone to work and i got to take care of the ADMINS at home

time has come for me to start working and earn money to prove another side of me
have to settle things in my life in another way which i had never done before
it seemed like i was being force to not become that innocent and gullible girl who always listens to others anymore but a strong and opposing lady with firm statements and convincing advice

it is kinda sucky as things start to change when i was not around
many things changed and it seemed like you all are waiting for my arrival to Singapore to help and boost this family
i felt that i am important, it is stressful to undertake this huge responsibility which is hard to share to anyone right now
i dont know who to turn to, although yes i am still excited and preparing myself to attend church as usual

as time goes by, i should be prepared to face new challenges in life to help my father to maintain this family
my family is not the same as others and i wont expect anyone to fully understand what my dad and i and the rest of the family members have and are going through now
it is not easy to open my mouth to suggest how to improve the family condition but i hope i wont offend anyone here and anyone in my family, especially my dad..

i want my family to be better, i dont want to cause any troubles.. who wants?
I am being bothered.. cannot have my time alone
I just want to pray for strength and wisdom, thats all i really need it now to face the reality and prepare for the worse / worst!