TMR is the DAY!

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG (13 OMGs, haha no need to count!)
can i say a billion more?
gosh, this is thrilling
the thought of gonna start work tmr and not going to have holidays as usual is merry-go-rounding in my mind
woah, it seemed like i am the first person among my grp of friends to start work
OFFICIAL WORK
thinking of what to wear, what to match, which shoes to wear, what kind of bag to carry so many things
females are so troublesome but I am glad and grateful that I am one~

tmr is going to be my first day of work and I am so looking forward to it
dont really like the waiting period as it will kinda be awkward and so when i stepped into work
anyway, going to have spicy malay food tmr hehe :P and i dont know whats going to happen but

HELLO SOPHIA MELINDA HAN, WELCOME TO THE PSA FAMILY
YAE!!!!! come on, people its worth the celebration for a new start of what i am going to face in abt 10 hours time like O to the M to the Geeesssss!!!
HAHAHA
going to meet my HR organiser
going to meet my HR manager
going to meet my HR colleagues
going to meet my HR ah bengs

i dont know why but I want to fully thank God for this and tgt with all the friends and people involved :)

thank you so much melvin for bringing me to block 27 in Ngee Ann to fix my laptop
woots, now my laptop is so cool now hehe and i am really thankful :)

Jianqun wished me Happy 1st Feb, how sweet but somehow sarcastic hahaha
remember him? my ritz carlton buddy, kept asking me to go back to work haha i cant la!

show you my hair colour since i think i didnt show at all HAHAHA

goodnight people, tmr will be a good time :)

OMG life is sucky for me right now
this is really really bad and i dont know why
i cant use microsoft as they are asking me for a product key which i need to go to school to check and let them help me solve this shitty problem which is so freaking troublesome for me
sigh, hope they can help me pleaseeeee!!!

i really need to practice my microsoft excel skills and all asap as i will be working this coming friday
OMG!!!
omg how how how?
melvin helping me to bring me there as i totally forgot the whole map of buildings in ngee ann
argh!!!!! this sucks mann like seriously!

i dont know how to talk abt this anymore, either die or die lorh!

KARMA is KARMA

miss support singing in church

went out with nich today after church to sing k-box
HAHA! he wanted to shop in vivo -.-
ok, saw alot of PSA people, whats with PSA ppl and vivo mann? like so related only

went to record our voices while singing hahha
omg so funny, anyhow sing also can
my singing stamina dropped :(

oh wells, had a dinner at The Fish Manhattan Market :

i miss eating boneless fish

talked about clubs, he wants to bring me there...

IP MAN

YAE!! so happily watching my IP MAN now on channel 8
the moment i heard the music i immediately dashed out of my room
grandma was like "woah only one music and you know?"
hahaha OF COURSE LA! IP MAN LEHHH

anyway, today is my third time going to yam since my return
and i was happy to see like i am really back home
hahaha i meant, like this is where i belong and its really home
just now, uncle eddy asked me "hey, sophia you ever do backup singing with me before right?"
me : yeah
uncle eddy : oh den are you still doing support singing? cos i seldom see you singing alr, did you ....
(he wanted to say quit but allow me to interrupt)
me : oh no no, i am still serving support singing, just that i was away for an exchange programme for 4 months haha
uncle eddy : oh i thought you think that the songs that i chose were too hard to sing den dont dare to do support singing
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA
(he super cute joker)
anyway, despite the fact that i dont expect the whole church to know that i was away but i am glad enough that they know my name and all :)
today was inductive bible study so got into a random grp with wencong, melva and joey hahaha how joke
and we were discussing bible study tgt, kinda fun and funny hahaa
just love my church

forgot to add on that i realised i have alot of english errors in some of the blog posts but am so lazy to login again to edit it
normally, the way i blog is that after publishing, i will logout becos when you logout of blogger, they will show you the preview of your blog :)
yeah, so pardon my english
and i know one of the mistakes was that i used to type "me" when suppose to be typed as "my"
alot of times and i will also have english grammar mistakes which only after i read it den am aware of haha
SORRY people!
this is just me, the blogging me :)

my body is aching everywhere, find it kinda hard to even walk nicely :X
tmr is sunday
6 more days left before i stepped myself into PSA HR :O
OMG I AM SO EXCITED!!!

I am back, so is my laptop :)

Hello OMG i miss you all people!!!!
although i dont really know who exactly reads my blog but i do miss you all HAHA
i know i have a mini grp of supporters ok?!
anyway, when did i stop blogging? HAHA i guess it was sunday
anyway, if my memory is working well...

MONDAY: 21st January
Went to meet up with sue to reformat my laptop and renew it so as to prepare ourselves for work
she got a job from her own effort mann!!! lets congrats her, i am so so happy for her :D
after that, left our laptop at Acer and went to Raffles City to eat and have lunch there
woo she brought me to a place who served italian food omg i miss pasta so much hehe and they dont charge GST or service thingy so to me, its worth the price
den went to Peninsular Plaza to purchase a CASIO watch for myself for only $15, i dont mind
heard that sue got it for like $10 and my friend got it for like $5, like what the but nvm
but got 2 scratches from thursday's netball, how suay but as long as it is unique enough to know that it is mine hahaha
also at the same place, went to change my POSB card to mastercard, woo like professional only
i know la, i am like so a beginner at all these but really need to thank sue if not i dont even know like there is such things right?
after this,walked ard and realised RUBI outlet in city link mall is gone so yeah
went to Charles and Keith and got myself a pair of $19.90 heels
ok, i wont say its very nice but its just simple and presentable for work
i need more heels and i dont care, going to shop for more next time or so
went to suntec city G2000 and there were SALES to the max OMG, i really shopped mann, as said! SPLURGE!
decided to head off to somerset to check out cotton on and f21
NOTHING MUCH, H&M woo but nothing also
went to ION, dont remember buying anything so took train to tanjong pagar becos sue need to meet up with her "agent" for her job
next went to bugis for shopping spree, quite a few formal tops and i was glad that i bought 2 pairs of shoes in a go (1 flats, 1 boots)
and OMG need to tell you all something, my foot size is shrinking
for now 37 is too big for me, i need to either wear 36 or 35 in order to fit my foot into shoes
gosh, small feet for me is not for my height mann
if only i am petite enough -.-
end our dinner with a nearby coffeeshop serving halal noodles (sue's crave) HAHA
AND THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I SHOPPED TIL I REALLY DROPPED MANN!!!
LIKKA SIA LA LORH :(
but i didnt regret buying any except for one dress argh and becos of that dress i bought a necklace, $32 wasted!

WEDNESDAY: 23rd January
had an outing with Zipeng haha, very long never hear his name alr right?
anyway, i think he missed me hahah and had lots of fairy tales to tell me -.- LOL
went for a jap buffet named Momiji Jap buffet
it is located in a shopping mall near Farrer park mrt station entrance
the place was nice and i got myself an earring hanger

cool anot?  quite a cute and pretty holder right?

and of course, when you first start off a jap buffet, you will need to EAT this hehe

nice chawanmushi

i sure took a lot of food to an extent we need to mix them up to make them look like trash, sigh now i know

the food there are quite nice la, pass-able but sushi teh is better though

went to take a walk to Haji Lane, this is my second time walking along Haji Lane

couldnt find osf shop but went to check out a new shop there which is OM-arket

i think something like this but the main icon is OM

the style was like a WOAH, total change

went to toa payoh to try out this ice cream waffle shop

the people there were really very nice and nice ambience as well

i love it hehe :) nice anot?

THURSDAY : 24th January

i was very excited for this day to come becos i got invited back to play NETBALL

ahhhh i miss NETBALL SO MUCH!

i want to burn the 5 months of sweat and fats hidden in me YEEEE-UCKS

I want to train, its weird not exercising for like so long since last year so its good to get back to sports

and so, i met up with olivia and marissa and took pictures with them

they were like omg, you dyed your hair cool and nice hehe

thank you girls and i am so glad to see that netball is so on now

got to admit i didnt really put in 101% effort when i was a vice-cap cos i wasnt enjoying it at all, just wanted to be a normal netballer

oh wells but since, its going well, i am glad and proud

i love the warm up too, very tough but COOL mann

the training was so awesome, got to do all the types of throwing of ball passes, 50 each

once dropped on the floor, re-count

i dropped like thrice mann HHAHAHA

had training with a partner named Terence, the moment he saw me he was like "eh you!! haven been seeing you for so long alr sia, welcome back!"
hehe thank you haha, there were guys in netball hahahaha
but its a good thing and better thing that they remember me if not i will become like some girl wandering among the juniors
atiqah came late (ex captain) so yeah
was practising my shootings and all, my stamina dropped like shit mann!
but during the game, i scored and shot in many goals for my team
OMG SO PROUD OF MYSELF!! I DID MY VERY BEST AND I WAS IN FORM!
one guy named QiaoLiang told me "i cant believe it, you were away for so long without any exercise but you still can shoot in so many goals, i am impressed!"
hahaha thank you, if not why am i the vice cap? ok la, just kidding but woah super shiok mann after so long and now i am having like muscleaches everywhere but i love it!!! woots~!

haha goodnight :)

God is with me all along

I dont know how to start this blog post becos the most amazing thing happened to me during this whole week
ok, it was really hectic!
let me confess something here but please do not spread it out or what
its just for people who reads my blog and the message just stops here and between you and me
I really didnt want to do that sharing at all, the speech that I made in YZ today
this is because, i hate to share, nothing much to share, i was afraid that no one will listen to me and i will end up making a fool out of myself, and this week has been busy for me and that i need to crack my brain to think of what to write or preach, it just turns my mind off

everyday coming back home, i just turn on my com and sigh, why do i have to prepare this speech, like seriously? why wasnt i given a choice to reject?
I HATE THIS!
probably its my character that spoils it all, being stubborn, was whining even blaming the pastor in my heart
this week, was preparing speech which i dont even want to do it at all (imagine, doing something which you hate, how contradicting?!), preparing YAM bs which demoralised me so much and making me feel inferior for not knowing how to answer all questions, preparing YZ bs which stressed me out when i could not concentrate in doing it as my mind was over-flooded by the thoughts of my sharing in YZ
it suck!
i broke down immediately!

came back home late as attended to a birthday party, tried finishing the YZ bs
oh gosh, nothing came into my mind, no wisdom, no God's word
i feel that i was being stranded away from the holy world, a world without God, a world that God has abandoned me
NO! THIS IS NOT ME! THIS WILL NEVER BE ME!
sigh, i tried again, cant write anything, cant teach anything alr
i was so frustrated, all becos of that speech! i gave up, started to break down and thinking where am i going to be in this world, where is my God?
slept at 411am, woke up at 709am
what a way to start my sunday, and i didnt feel tired at all

went to church with an empty spirit! it sucks, it really sucks!
to be honest, didnt really listen well to sermon, still distracted by the speech and YZ bs thing
kept praying, to do this for God's glory instead of doing it for men
it sucks, but the changing of intention did helped a little
could not control emotions during praise and worship when the "Power of Your love" played, gosh, i really need a renewal of a holy soul, i need to draw close to God
prayed with tears and let loose myself to let God help me and keep my cool

went to have a little chat with joey and she told me to jiayou!
grace was asking "sophia, you doing sharing right? jiayou ok?"
wencong "aiyah, if you not sure, just hurry mumble and talk faster!"
cyrus "aiyah, the angle of looking at them is very important, therefore, we need them to sit on chairs, you can one la"
pastor edwin " aiyah can one la, easy one " (oh please, you were the one who assigned me can?)
liqun "sophia, JIAYOU!"
thank you guys, i know it was just a small encouragement but to me, it really meant alot
Thank you Valencia for printing it out for me, will never forget your kindness
Thank you Wilson for listening out to me and Melody for the sms encouragement, you good! hehe :P
thank you elizabeth and michelle for cheering me on also

I cooperated well after cyrus passed me the microphone
shared and left leg was shaking vigorously HAHAHAH no la, not that serious but i managed to overcome stage fright and i dont mind standing there talking again but NO SPEECH PLEASE!
i remembered i first started off by saying "Hi YZers, do you all know who am i?"
well expected with their honest answers, some yes, some no, thank you and finally you all know that my name is Sophia, the girl who went to china -.-

as i finished off my speech and prayer, cyrus passed by me with a quick whisper "I didnt know your sharing was so well-composed!" omg are you serious? well, i am glad that its finally over you know
i have people coming to me saying that my sharing was very good! was very clear, very well said :)

YZ bs (the second obstacle) : i was so glad that my girls did their bs homework and one of their answers was so brilliant that i told everyone to write it down :)
told michelle to lead the last part as that was the part i could not concentrate teaching on and yeah
Thank God that at least michelle and i managed to bring His word across hehe

going to have DGL meeting soon, and before that, a guy named Jasper approached me to ask me if i would like to lead worship for YAM
WOAH, WHAT A WOAH! all my things are over, fears and worries are gone and now a surprise?
gosh! KARMA again for the second time!
first time was pastor kien seng approaching me to be a dgl during ritz carlton as i was serving Tony Tan
and now after sharing / speech , Jasper came to tell me that i was being recommended to lead worship for YAM
Thank God for everything, i feel grateful :)
Let me start anew with You :)
Amen.










Keep it up Sophia :)
(haha i chose this funny photo of me, taken in Beijing!)

trip to Fraser Suite

well, the 50% of my busy-ness has gone and I am so happy about it
was rushing like crazy this afternoon
preparing bs-es :(
really too stress that i got to break down for a minute or two to let loose myself and move on
anyway, YAM was fine today and the weather has bad! mao mao yu~
rush to Fraser Suite River Valley (its like a hotel cum apartment) for Sue's sister's birthday
hahah
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SANGEETHA!!!
really hope you like your celebration party and stuff
your hotel is so awesome yo~!

had a fun time being involved
and its good that everything went well as i know i may be busy but the smiles on people's faces just made me day
so I am feeling fine still TEEHEE :P

going on a massive splurge for the upcoming week
and yes, one more RANDOMLY RANDOM THING FULL OF RANDOMNESS
BY THIS RANDOM GIRL NAMED MELODY!

ok la, not one of the best photos that i had someone to take for me

the fault goes to my jia-pa-lang phone.. hahaha how unglam but this is the only photo

hahahah main point is not my appearance but on what i am holding

well, its a "Made-In-Italy" Hello Kitty water bottle

this girl ah, crazy or what... showed me in the middle of bs, about to laugh my ass out mann HAHA

SO SWEET OF YOU, THANK YOU MELODY :)

forgot to mention one more thing that happened on friday,

as i was walking in orchard, there was this lady, ard my age but slightly older who approached me

i know, survey survey nothing but survey!

but she beat about the bush and ask me abt what am i doing now and stuff

didnt really listen as i was tired from the chalet, anyhow answer

after everything, filling in the form, she den told me that her company sells japanese products and they need to find a few girls ard my age to try out their products and comment abt it

so what she need from me is my comments abt it and i have to expect a call soon a day or after to go there to try out their jap products

oh gosh! thank you for approaching me but huh, my face just you know, to me is RECOVER, i dont wish to let any other products to interfere, although yes, i do trust korean and jap products more than any other but NEH!

this morning, some guy called me, i didnt picked up but text him instead to ask him who is the person who called me, den to know that he is a guy... oh wells, he could be the one and i didnt reply so the convo stopped there and THANK GOD mann, i dont wish to make a big fuss out of it and den to try their products

:X

I need a break

I am stress mann!! this sucks
kinda~
super packed the whole week and stuff
money not enough to use and i hate to always withdraw from my bank
it just shows how i spend my money
i need a break mann
not a pack full of activities

and i really will feel bad if two activities clashes tgt and i am doing a first-come-first-serve thing
and the other side got to make another date just to do another arrangement for me concerning ard 10 people
gosh! i am such an ass mann

it sucks to be me right now
i feel like an evil person
neglecting people who needs my care and accompany
doing things for people for their benefits instead of my interest
putting God aside
spending shitty money for things that i really need but going to be broke soon
I NEED A BREAK!

God i have sinned too much, how can I help myself?
i ever said i wont complain in 2013 right? haha see all these......
its hard to not complain mann
all these are small matters but i am kicking a big fuss just to make my blog on-going
i dont know what am i typing alr
bye :)

Busier than busy

Hi people :)
sigh, Sophia is so going to be busy this week
later heading out for dinner with Jo, Nich and Jarell, where jarell's attendance is unconfirmed
after which, just realised that the following day is thursday, which I need to go to school for some dialogue session followed by a chalet booked for sue, Kaisheng and Darrel hahah yae!
the china friends meetup HAHA!
followed by need to touch up on my sharing speech!
RAWR!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Did i shared about the process of how this blog started? HAHAHA
quite random but yeah, i did screenshot it!
Thomas was in the scene HAHA!

signing off~

Grown Up Girl :)

sigh.. forgot that i left my laptop at my parents' home ytd and then, gosh, could not pay the blogshop on time
could not blog on time and blahs
oh wells...
anyway, I WAS SO SO SO HAPPY THAN EVER to be able to dye my hair
WITH SUE SOMEMORE!!!
people normally dye their hair after o's but for me is after poly hhaha, LAGGER---
this is the first time i dyed my hair with her and met this hairdresser from Shanghai, woo~
another hairdresser (whom i assumed he is from malaysia) kept calling me "xiao mei mei" haha, and kept asking my shangahi hairdresser why does he always get all the younger girls customers compared to him
gosh, please la, its not choose or cannot choose one ok?
get means get alr lorh MUAHAHAHA
anyway, my shanghai dresser was very friendly to like chat with me and stuff, making fun of my hair -.-
hahahaha and the thing was that they can only speak in chinese which also means to say I got to be a translator again for sue
gosh i thought my job was done in china but didnt know i got to do it in sg as well HAHAHAHA
haiyo but in the end, everything went well and i was satisfied with my hair colour ahhhhhh

my hairdresser recommended me to take a combined colour, so its like a combination of dark brown and a little of light brown, i guess but for now, it turned out like reddish brown, gosh, i dont know if it suits me anot becos my hair seemed to appear like dark at some parts or something
sue said that she liked my hair colour and it really goes well with my skin
my grandma said i look somehow like an angmoh HAHA
my dad was like WALAO-EH o.o
anyway, whatever it is, it is done and i cant do much abt it hahahahahaha
i still didnt regret to try out this risk
and its hard for me to take a picture of my hair as it will appear dark in front of cameras

after dying our hair, sitting on that uncomfortable chair for hours, we are finally done with BOOMZ hair out of the salon
went to lucky plaza to get some stuff hehe
AND I WAS SO PROUD OF MYSELF!!!
as some of you know i am indonesia chinese, which alot of stereotypes said that indonesian chinese are rich and pretty for girls
to me, NOT TRUE AH, me not rich, just manageable only and looks wise, its for people to judge hahaha
MAIN point was i got myself a perfume :)
its Burberry perfume!!!!

(left to right : silky girl lipstick, Burberry perfume, maroon nail polish)

Indonesians usually use Burberry brand or other branded stuff (as heard from my Indonesian friend) but getting this burberry perfume made me feel so proud to be an INDONESIAN CHINESE hahahahaha
ok la, enough of my identity....

we headed off to KFC at Far East Plaza
AHHHHH sue was so sweet to eat KFC with me, i miss chicken and SO DOES SHE!!!!
didnt take a picture as i was too eager to eat them HAHA!
went to CK department which was just nearby and got myself one shower cap, one lipstick :O, one maroon nail polish
woah, i was like a successor mann!
and sue said this which i will remember "OMG, sophia, i really feel very happy for you! its like you have grown up and I had made you grown up you know? dye hair, can dress already, you know how to pull it off,  buy perfume, buy lipstick so many things to prepare yourself for your HR job!"
I know right :) thank you so so much, you indeed helped me alot for all these

went shopping a bit and then to realise that my leg size changed!!! gosh, it decreased by one size..
last time, my size was 37 but now 37 is loose for me and i got to wear 36, sigh, this is bad, really bad!!!
how to find shoes for myself.. 37 is like the more common size compared to 36 argh!

anyway, had a very nice and cool day yesterday!!! (14th January 2013)

First weekend when I got back from China

my sunday morning didnt started off well
OH WELLS...
but the feeling of singing in the sanctuary again touched me
well, didnt want to overreact or be too emotional but I am glad that I am back :)
seeing those familiar faces made me smile
seeing my girls
seeing so many friends, sisters and brothers in christ that i miss
going to do a sharing next sunday
DO LORH!

SATURDAY:
while walking to church slowly, the very first singaporean from TWPC to greet or call my name was JOEY! haha she called my name from the mrt station and i was like OMG JOEY!! gave her a hug, i miss her hehe :P
i was like lost of words, dont know what to say cos you know? that kind of feeling?
anyway, when i stepped into the YAM room, pastor ronnie was like "OH SOMEONE IS BACK!"
omg so loud that everyone started looking at who was at the door, so awkward but i like it hehe!
anyway, it was good to see everyone again, nothing much change but I am glad that i am finally back into the TWPC family :)

had a dinner with nich, jo mel and mark at SUSHI TEH!

i didnt even bother to turn the chawanmushi, just slide it to my side and snap a picture 

gosh the taste of my MUSHI hahahaha

order TAMAGO sushi and TAMAGO MAKI 

HA! i really do love eggs, EGGS SUSHI :)

headed off for a mini shopping spree with them 

gosh ZARA, PULL AND BEAR, F21, F-NEW (short form), SEPHORA, COTTON ON ETC ETC ETC

they are all STILL THERE, which made me so happy hehe

.. IM A HAPPY GIRL... IN A HAPPY WORLD~~~ 

Joanna treated me ice cream!!!!!! ok la, actually is all of us, a tub of Ben and Jerries hehe YAE!!! ME SO HAPPY!!! supposedly was nich lorh.... and i used instagram HAHAHA

I dont own an iphone but i have an instagram acct and i was asking my friends "How to use instagram?" HAHAHAHA how jokery!??!?!?!

I really miss SHOPPING in singapore, i really dont mind investing in clothes ever since i came back from china and i dont know why, its like a necessity to me to own clothes, just that it will be irritating if my cupboard or wardrobe does not have sufficient space

time was so impatient to past too fast, we barely really talk about our updates...

went to Mel's hse to collect all her unwanted clothes and try them on

woah, as if i was like doing a runway solo , and with teddy in the changing room with me hahaha yeeee

pervert cat HAHAHA AH BU!

went back home with a big bag :O

Tomorrow:

going to dye my hair

going to do some banking stuff

going to shop, I HOPE SO!!! PLEASE!!!!

Twitter user

Its only becos I went to twitter and found out about something which calmed my pondering heart and made me felt comforted.
Thank you Thomas :)
and
EXPAND is the opposite of COLLAPSE
-.-

What do you do when things dont go well

sigh, i dont know what to say, what to do, how to react

Dear Diary...

I am quite excited hehe
becos I will be going out tmr
woah, its like as if i came out from some unknown prison from the 4 months
I am like a beginner traveller Singaporean

I will be going out for facial tmr hehe and I am feeling happy about it
sigh, kinda worried about the money left in my bank account
dont know how much I have left, dont know if have enough or not
sigh, just going spend accordingly or so HMM HMM

anyway, just being random about this comparison but she is wearing the same hat as me HAHA

RANDOM #1

4th day back in Singapore

Hi blog,
finally done with my packing of my study table in my room

neat? haha sorry that i didnt take the previous photo of it
it was too messy and my grandma covered it with a cloth
so this picture that i posted, to me, is considered neat enough alr HAHA

only left with others jackets and outerwears to be brought for dry cleaning
i really miss singapore's snacks like prawn crackers, calbee chips hehe
starting to love M&Ms nowadays

oh as mentioned in the previous blog that i will be dying my hair and doing manicure right?
well, there was some budget constraint going on so sue and i decided to dye our hair in singapore through deal.com.sg website and so we got a deal for hair dye and hair treatment, with additional $5 for cutting of hair length for only $30, WHY NOT!
so gonna dye my hair next monday :) yeah!

going to have lunch with my auntie and cousin tmr haha chinese lunch :)
going to have facial session with my beautician on friday, i miss her so much although sometimes she can get irritating by promoting her products HAHA
going to have SUSHI TEH session with 4JS but heard without Jarell
but I am so excited to catch up with my friends HEHE :P
ahhh jarell, where are you?
going to church on sunday (OF COURSE!)

hehe, I am so happy that I am finally back in Singapore :)

Indeed there were many things awaiting for me in Singapore :)
things just got too stress in terms of things to be handled in the family
now that I am back and that people often look for my opinion and asked me for suggestions
oh gosh, yes I felt honoured that you guys seek for my advice but the thing is that it seemed so serious to an extent that i got to take care of everything
its like parents gone to work and i got to take care of the ADMINS at home

time has come for me to start working and earn money to prove another side of me
have to settle things in my life in another way which i had never done before
it seemed like i was being force to not become that innocent and gullible girl who always listens to others anymore but a strong and opposing lady with firm statements and convincing advice

it is kinda sucky as things start to change when i was not around
many things changed and it seemed like you all are waiting for my arrival to Singapore to help and boost this family
i felt that i am important, it is stressful to undertake this huge responsibility which is hard to share to anyone right now
i dont know who to turn to, although yes i am still excited and preparing myself to attend church as usual

as time goes by, i should be prepared to face new challenges in life to help my father to maintain this family
my family is not the same as others and i wont expect anyone to fully understand what my dad and i and the rest of the family members have and are going through now
it is not easy to open my mouth to suggest how to improve the family condition but i hope i wont offend anyone here and anyone in my family, especially my dad..

i want my family to be better, i dont want to cause any troubles.. who wants?
I am being bothered.. cannot have my time alone
I just want to pray for strength and wisdom, thats all i really need it now to face the reality and prepare for the worse / worst!

A Brand New Year - 2013

Hello people,
well, I have moved into a new blog
New Year, New Blog
kinda really miss miss miss blogging regularly
well, a small little catch up!!

Reached Singapore on sunday night around 8pm
and when i saw my grandma once i stepped out of the Arrival Hall, i totally just threw my arms around her, not caring whether my trolley was blocking anyone's way and cried
I could not control my immediate emotions
and she kept saying "its ok, its ok"
my dad was waiting impatiently to hug me, he laughed at my crying face and showed me this "I am so proud to have you as my daughter" face
it was the first time when dad booked a reservation in the hotel and we had a mini dinner

the secret is about to be revealed : the big investment i was talking all along was an electric keyboard that i bought from china
the brand is YAMAHA and i wanted this for a long time already and dad wasnt even angry about this
instead, we had a hard time trying to squeeze things in the hyundai car hahaha
Thank you daddy for everything, you have always support me in anything I do becos you simply just trust me
Thank you grandma for everything, you have never given me up on supporting me in any ways
Thank you mummy, for being there to receive me
Thank you Michael, my dear brother for growing up and proving your independence

- going to start work on the 1st Feb