Reflect...

I want to declare that I want to prioritize God first
Friends, I hope you can understand this becos it is not easy for me to manage church and all outings smoothly when I am working and all.. Not easy at all and it's super stress.. The feeling which I hate and needed God most!
So just saying in advance in any case that I won't be able to make it for outings or worse still Dont even ask me to plan, God comes first and just first and nothing else.. Alright? Had a deep talk session with my dad and really felt disappointed with myself that I am unable to manage all these and please God

For now I am just trying to settle down and ponder things in life! Life has been busy, nothing but busy with so many activities that I don't even have time for God, hope you guys are understanding cos I do believe I make understand friends :)
If you guys are bored, perhaps take some time to maybe just encourage me ok? I know I may kinda ask for too many requests but I really need them somehow now and during this period of pondering and reflecting
I don't want to leave God and I don't want God to leave me becos I need Him!
Sigh really feeling down nowadays and hope I can manage my time better within this trial kind of thing :')
Goodnight :)

today is 28th March

tmr is good friday and one thing to thank for is that its the last day of work for this week
well, practically for most of us i guess

things to repent just made me want to blog right now
using this extra time that i have
i have heard many stories and also will never forget my own story that God has created for me
my story, i am proud to share my story
my story has brought me life
this story in me has changed me
it consists of many many characters and props
it consists of miracles and wonders with dreams
it also consists of someone important, God :)

whenever i asked someone, what is the world like
most answers will be  - the world is never fair, nothing in this world is free, no one gets what they want
due to humans' desires for their own pleasure and nothing is ever FAIR in this world
broken relationship, financial problem, spoilt friendship, family issues etc
this all sums up my story?

I made many mistakes in life despite i can rank them from top to bottom
thank God that I didnt murder or what
thank God for always being there for me
there are ppl in my life who has caused my troubles but what am i suppose to do
i seemed to be sinful just to accommodate with them and neglecting God aside

this is the day and the time to perfectly repent for my sins
God, I had neglected You, You werent of my first priority
something that i am too ashamed to share, something which i dont deserve a good life
sometimes i asked why am i living in this world
come on, this shldnt be a question to why is my mind is so negative -.-
God gave me a life to glorify Him
but I am doing things that does not please Him AT ALL!

life is study, study, study/work, work (what I am now)
there are many many important and treasurable ppl in my life
one whom I respect most, is my dad
i indeed learnt alot from him and has yet to learn totally all, i need him in my life (not really a good thing)
another two who are important in my life forever, my former mother (my dad kept saying the more i grow, the more i am like just like her) and my grandmother
you guys must be thinking and asking, what about my stepmum
well, she is like a person whom i can respect but i am not close with her, thats all
my brother has never fail to cheer me up although he has been those typical "annoying" kind but i do appreciate his effort and nature to be my brother
life has its stages which served as stepping stones for us to be able to reach to the end until we die
through these, God has always been grateful to me as i was stepping
and i want to tell you all, that this is not just it that ends ur life
there are so many things to be thankful for
there are also alot of bo liao ppl disturbing you, you just need to know how to play the game
there are so many things i have yet to appreciate
your answers may be there are so many types of food i have yet to try
there are so many other activities i have yet to try out
there are so many places i want to go
but why not thank God that He gave you a chance to live ur life to make the fullest
defining fullest as an extend of how God want you to live your life :)

times up! i shall stop blogging now :)
have a Good Friday and Easter Day :)
think and reflect about your life of what have you done
right or wrong? happening now or past? what did you gain? did you learn anything out from it?
how can you improve ur lfie better? are there memories need to be kept or thrown aside? are there things you need to keep or get rid of? worth? happy or not? are you living how God want you to live?
march is ending soon, and I am glad that 31st March falls on Easter
~signing off~

Random and words before pictures

Back den when my hair was black :)

Finally met up with Gisele and Vanessa haha :)

Haha 'tap tap',
Whose there? 'Turn turn'
Oooh, it's Nicholas Tong!
Hi :)

Impact of my company

My one and a half months work duration has caused me to have 11 pimples! Best! Beautician, thank goodness I am meeting you today :)

12th March, JO's birthday, Jiayou nich!!!

Happy Birthday to you JOANNA nanananana!!!!!
hehe, like happy girl only
you are 20 alr leh, sian, when my turn comes, i will feel more sad-old HAHA
i miss being 16 and 19, these two years were like my best years or all

anyway, today, nich is going to face an operation so lets keep him in prayers ok?
like the surgeon will know what/how to process this situation, and that he will stay calm and God will definitely be with him, so have faith my friend :)

today is a battle worth battling
I am starting to enjoy my work better and hope that this will continue cos who knows what will happen next?
even melinda doesnt so keep up my head high and work forward
I am currently doing an investigation job which seems more interesting compared to just research and information analysis hehe

and I had learnt how to cycle!!! woohoo~
sian, plan was to wait to get a bf den teach me one but den now know alr so it also means to say hahahhahaha
yeah lorh but its ok, better than i dont know right?
now having hard time moving about in the office, cant sit like immediately, got to be slower and all hehe

now my days are like just letting them passing by, day by day, step by step
i dont know whats going to happen the next minute kind of thing
super busy, tiring and sometimes rushing
its like now schedules are just work, sleep, meeting friends, preparing bs and all
with all these, it totally took up like one whole week without proper rest and i do understand and got to expect that this will happen somehow
--- not forgetting beautician appointment, etc etc etc, practically is just going out to different places with different people, yeah!

so yup! I am still strong and forever strong, standing alone with the Almighty God's guidance and i do believe, He has been watching over me and all of us here hehe
my blogviews have been increasingly increasing, its a good thing but bad thing is that i dont really have a time to find to blog, like really blog, for now is just like parts and pieces but i am sure when i have the time to, i will, yup yup!!

thanks for those who has always been supporting me, love you all :)

Monday no blues woohoo~!

What the?! I want to represent PSA for photoshoot too!!!!!!!!!! :)

Church I miss you!

1st March has granted me with a runny nose a flu :)
Haha today like ok la, work was fine and all.. Hurry rushed things den leave alr HAHAHAHAHA
Thank you so much Janice for putting me in charge of distributing the PSA lanyards within my department,even my manager was shocked how come he didn't know, cos.... You didn't know lorh? haha and ppl started placing their orders of colours

Haha almost everyday, I have ppl coming to me asking me how I do my hair or do u have a bf cos at my age is the dating period hahaha, Chey!
It's ok, as long as these made me feel young :)

Going to meet sue now for Atas bar session hehe :)

at the 37th floor

sigh, its kinda sad like i have two of my colleagues like gone? hahha both gone for a week but i guess it was in a good way that made me strong
i meant like i am that kind need ppl to be seated where they are suppose to sit in office and all den i will feel secure but apparently, this served as a challenge for me

hahaha forgot to say, saw Lin Ting at one of the food courts he went with adrian and one more friend
sigh, from far la so didnt say hi, wonder if he would recognise me haha

orientation was kinda fun, met two girls working in PPT 1 and asked one of them to help me say HI to Lina
and becos she only knows that her manager was lina so yeah ahhaa
and Lina was so sweet, she had a talk with my manager a few days back and before she hung up the phone, she said "oh help me say hi back to sophia"
HAHAHAHA WOAH LINA!!!! you are so sweet mann!! hahaa
really miss working in the ops and the people whom i worked with before
memories kept in heart, always remembering you guys and the hard work for fish as well
heard that i will be working with you guys again through HR post but still, yeah keep in touch
work is work hehe!

i love to use my office phone, dont know leh, so cool
i love to direct calls, i love to call, but i am scared to pick up calls, hahaha but ok la
today's work was fine and i am loving it becos i ever told kenny before i go for HR, i want to become like Lina and yeah hahahha
today i came back home, told my dad "i talked like lina today" ahhah joke!
was talking sense to my manager about the manpower and all woah, like got value only!
really really miss ops! one thing i didnt miss much was radioset, thats all!
all the fun laughter peace and joy and also not forgetting psa toilet! ahhaha
so far my psa building's toilet is clean la and nice to use hahahha
and today is one of my best days, learning more excel formula, its so cool mann!!!
love excel, even when i just made a correct move, A correct move, just one step, i can like scream and shout for joy
and today, manager called me over, i went meeting him and started to giggle, i also dont know why
hahahhaa and i guess that giggle made everyone's day haha
he should send me fish lorh, i made their day

and and i got to say, in a non-humble way, that my popularity in psa building 37th floor went up high enough than i expected
not becos of my name, not becos of what am i working on or who i am under but becos of one simple reason, not my face but my HAIR
hahahah you all may wonder... what? HAIR? YES MY HAIR helped me gain my popularity
i have people whom i dont know came to me, asked me how i did my hair, it was so amazingly done and all
getting all the praises for my hair hahahhaa
and some aunties purposely tried to imitate my hair style by clipping here and there den showing to my manager asking, "hey like sophia's hair right?" den my manager went like errrrrrr
hahahah so cute! they kept asking "how i manage to style my hair"
even eugene made sense to it, hahah ok la i believe you la
he said he really liked my hair, the way it was being styled and all ahhhaa
good! for hair!

going to have an outing with sue tmr
and she is going to bring me to a bar
i kinda rejected her offer to go to a club but she understoood my situation as in i also have a dad who doesnt even want me to think abt it so yeah, might as well also dont go
i am fine with bars, more atas, high class, nice place to chill and all hehe

tuesday went out with jo and yeah, htht lorh, shld keep her and her family in prayers yeah
wednesday went out with rachel and opps, yup! knew something and good that i know, thank you so much!

bye people, tmr is a FRIDAY! YEAH! FISH!Y FRIDAY for HRDIANS hahahaha

Motivation Encouragement

Be mindful that each person is unique. We have different talents and strengths and different backgrounds. So it does not make sense to compare ourselves with anyone else - Dr Elizabeth Nair, principal psychologist at Work and Health Psychologists.

One more thing to add, i know I am not a political, economical, or worldly person

worldly i meant as in like not that kind between spiritual and worldly

as in those like i dont even know about the world that kind

BUT.. Singapore is going to build a high speed rail station, yay!!! its good that we are progressing, hahaha like China hehe :P but good to have one at least, not saying copy but making us more developed and like "everything also have" that kind of thing

ok, i dont really know how to describe news on my blog but yeah!

ytd wasnt as good day as i thought but it somehow does encourages me to look forward to the next day

as what paul said in Romans 5:3-5,

"Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us."

song bo? haha I know right! God has been so awesome to me :)

Learn to be Thankful

I know that I may not be performing up to your expectation but knowing that I know where I kinda stand.. Thank you for giving me that level of assurance and comfort, thank you :)