GOOGLE GAME!

HI EVERYONE!!
this was what made my day hahaha

hahaha 31 candies (intentional) and below states my highest score so far but i shall stop playing alr ahahah

i should have type something in the box lorh (JUST SAYING!!!)

YAYYY!!!
My colleagues and i decided to wear red today ahah what a mob
not flash mob but can say erm "color" mob? ahah
last week was blue and today is red, i wonder whats up next week

hehe, cant wait to sing for church this sunday!
have a blessed weekend ppl :)

#arentwecool

Fire Drill, a new interest than korean drama

haha today is a day that i had my best experience to climb down the stairs from the 37th floor
sigh, really lost all motivation no doubt i can find it back but its like you know
a point in life time when you just had no choice cos you lost all interest in all things that you have to "accuse" urself for being lazy and not efficient

well, I have found one interest in life haha
may not agree with me but its ok, haha i can be weird at times or rather i can say what i am facing now could already drove me to this state

Introducing the MAURY SHOW:
well, how on earth i even get to know this show was through a youtube video filmed by a 15 year old girl, pregnant and other links are as shown, Maury
(haha dont ask me why did i even get to there but somehow yeah, a random curiosity led to an interest)
this show reveals the truth through LIE DETECTIVE TEST as well as DNA TEST
and watching intense and complicated family issues makes me wonder how corrupted the world can be
its an American show but filmed in New York and its still on going
and alot of scenarios you can never imagine, more worse to come :)
this is the link for introduction of Maury's show : http://www.mauryshow.com/

and i am not advertising this to pollute you guys or what or saying that i am being polluted, its just interesting seeing how these are managed and reaction of people...
all you have to do is to go youtube and type "maury show" and ALOT of video cases you can go and watch
each time i watch, my jaw just drop lower and lower
i shall not give any examples here after a second thought cos i do respect their lives, but yeah feel free to watch
this guy has alot of supporters :)

sigh,
i guess i shall rant here cos no one will judge me in a way that i will know in here
I HATE WHAT I AM DOING
it started off from lack of interest, to dislike to unwilling to hate
and the best part is, i do not have a choice

ytd a question struck me by one of my friends saying "why are you doing this?"
well to be honest, that shld be the question that i ask myself why am i doing this
WHY AM I DOING THIS? why am i doing smth that i hate?
is there a solution right now? i dont think so, i would probably just go crazy

if i am given choices to choose from such as
1) go to the beach alone to cry, cool down and meditate
2) "drown" myself in a swimming pool in my longest breath
3) book a high class hotel to sleeeeeeeeeeep as long as i want

what am i doing? this is just so ... i dont know
want to cry but want to be strong
want to stay positive and how hard can it be
want to get away but i cant run away
this horrible feeling accumulated since the start of the year

why am i here? why am i here for? why am i doing this? why am i facing all this?

there is just a point of time in my life that i did not present my troubles to God
.........................
RANTING, is one of my hobbies now (sad to say)
... i guess i have to live with it and stay strong and conquer

update?

Hi Diary, Melinda, friends and people of the world
I am back to blogging because I JUST MISSED IT

life has been more exciting apart from you (something, not someone)
yeah and I really thanked God that I am more involved in church now and all

Firstly, I want to thank all those awesome peeps who celebrated my 20th birthday
1) My department ppl
2) My colleagues and temps
3) Sunita Amurthalingam, Kaisheng, Darrel, Gisele, Vanessa
4) Grace, Wilson (partially laaaa)
5) Random 6, sort of?
did i miss out anyone? ahhh too many alr
hahaha i counted and 9 all tgt HAHA!!
in any case i miss out or what, THANK YOU people still :)

Secondly, I am happy to be able to lead my girls up till this day with Michelle :)
we had an outing not long ago, just ytd and i guess they all had fun? haha
we ate pastamania, shopped, movie, shopped HAHA
i miss shopping so much!!

LIFE, blessed and blissful ahhaa NOT DRAMA horh! its real :)

on contrary, things didnt get right as well
starting to have family issues that i need to help out
starting to realise BETTER things in life.............
PS i dont know how to continue this but yeah I am alright la

i just hate friends who really make use of you..
and the reason why i "hate" instead of "dislike" is becos i felt that through all these years, I am just being made used of so much so that i had enough
accumulation of using me, i have been too kind

--- being such a shopaholic, such a sin easy to repent for Sophia HAHAHAA