I am a sinner

woah, my pageviews hit 1552 this year
since january when i first started off until now 24 June, its considered alot dont know is either who kept refreshing my blog hahahaha no la, yay!!! good good, thank you readers :)
although the amount of pageviews is not money but supporters are good enough to earn :)

anyway, i was so happy!!
saturday, it was my first time to go to JEM and had lunch at PEPPER LUNCH
well, i am not really a rice person ever since the end of my internship, i have been eating rice and it gave me weight! boohoo to rice!
and i was so happy that they actually had pasta there
and yes mann!!! fulfilled my crave for PRAWN AGLIO OLIO
did you see my fb? ahahhaa nvm see or dont see, i will still post it here

and here you go :

with instagram filter MUAHAHAH, doesnt it look so gooooooooood to taste it?

"slurp slurp"

the best.. er hem! non-spicy PRAWN AGLIO OLIO :)

they even provided onions woohoo and the prawns are super fresh, and yes scallop too, super nice

spaghetti whosh HAHAHA

$11.90, WORTH THE TRY

and i would like to try their carbonara next time, like hmm mushroom sauce spaghetti :)

other food there which includes rice are ard $9.90, less than $10

later on, went to H&M woah best! i really really love H&M hahaha

cos the clothes are really cheap although some were really super ridiculously high

i miss shopping and anyway got myself a burgundy dress - for my friend's 21st birthday party (theme was purple, but i think burgundy was good enough alr, $17.90 NIAAAAAA)

hahaha

JEM is my second paradise la, just that a little hard to find food,except upstairs but some are just like erm like 2 restaurants at each level that kind
and and and i found a few shops which sell blogshop items OMG
It just got me so excited to be there and take my time to choose my clothes yo
HAHAHA

Sunday: YAY VERA IS BACK YO~!
i was so happy to see my leader once again after ......... 10 months? HAHAHA
cos i left for china and when i came back, she left to London a few days before i came back ahahha
we parted for 10 months, close to a year and i really really missed her
gave her a hug and she asked me hows life and everything, i missed being pampered by church leaders hehe
and there was a workshop, super cool!
teaching us on how to approach like non-christians and all and i felt that it was a super useful workshop :)
yeah and so i kinda whatsapp nine ppl abt if christians portrayed themselves as imposing and all
ahahah and yes, at least some of them replied HAHA

had a shopping spreee and mooovvviieeeeeeee woohoo!! and I met claudia :)

hahaha i dont know how to end this post so yeah hahaha hello and bye :)
- going to meet maisie on wednesday which i am so so so excited for! it has been 9 months and long enough :)

hows life?

Hi, I AM BACK AGAIN!
i just cant wait for friday to END, as in not even waiting for it to come this time round
well life has been ............... TIRING?
real tired, dont know but now i am really in the mood or rather discipline to save money haha
will feel guilty if i spend too much on food
hmm shopping? maybe can spend cos haven been shopping for a while alr HAHA
do I make sense?
well, i always dont HAHA!

recently, edwin asked me a question, do i spend more money on food? or clothes?
well, my answer was i ever spent more on food and ever spent more on clothes BUT for now, i just spend what i need or want
but after thinking abt it for a few days and now with the GSS, i think i am still into spending more on shopping than food
i ever remember last time i was so obsessed to shop to an extent that i even used my food money to pay for it and i didnt regret because it was a matter of fact that as long as i get what i want

and now, working alr, i cant believe that i even bear to spend so much money just buying clothes of popular or common brands last time
like for example, one normal top from Pull n Bear with a printing on it, it ranges from maybe lets say $19.90 to $39.90, last time i dont mind spending just on 29.90 but now is like when i see it, its so ex and immediate heartpain HAHA
cos now i am just more into blogshopping and paying through card so the pain is not there
well, i did spent some time to even buy things that are lesser than 20 and look nice HAHA
thats called smart but now i have been so busy so yeah, seeing when i am free to shop
shop as in go to shopping malls to shop but not blogshop haahha i can blogshop anytime

can i also say i miss splurging/spending money? hahah the luxurious feeling to spend money and make urself feel so rich and all
i miss sleeping too!!! i miss my drama which i alr finished watching like what the?! oh wells sigh
life has been good and i believed it can be better and could have been better :)

God Bless everyone !!

PS: just a random blog post.

Sunday is always one of the days that I am looking forward to

Hi, it was a Sunday like erm, ytd that i sat with Timothy (the cheerful guy that i called in church) for combined service..
it wasnt really an obvious announcement that it was combined service - celebrating Happy Father's Day!!
hehe, and as the sermon was given, i just had some flashbacks about my past
oh wells, it was never the same as some girls in the world to celebrate both mother's and father's day
its somehow interlink for me
some of you may know me or not so well
but yes, my mum passed away when i was ard 6 years old? or 5?
and i know i have been repeating this like quite a few times in my blog posts but yeah i am fine and i dont mind sharing, i may or may not know you readers but yes, i always appreciate the fact that you bothered to even read my story
ok and so, i had a stepmum when i was 8 and yeah, typical stepmums are not easy to get along with
and so, i always described myself as a Cinderella and perhaps my prince charming will come and find me "with that right pair of glass slipper"
HAHAHAHAA
well, i received comments from friends and ppl that i am strong blah, despite all these i am still cheerful and strong blah, but haiyah, what to say abt this is that i am kinda used to it but i wont deny the fact that i do miss my mum more and more as i grow older
my dad and i are super close, we can share everything in the world, and yeah, life has not been good for him though and he always praised me that my character and actions always remind him of his former wife.. but, what can i do? but i always feel proud and honored to be his daughter who reminds him of her
not that it will make him sad but it just allow him to "feel her presence", you ppl get what i mean right?
yeah he has been thankful to have me as a daughter.. you ppl must be wondering how you know how he feel towards you, well, we are father and daughter for a reason :)

either of these days (mother's and father's days), the focus for me will always be on my parents :X
well, i do reflect on my lives sometimes, last time used to reflect alot but now is like lesser
ok, i am not planning to make this an emo blog post ok?
haha anyway after service, went to my dad's church to surprise him with a muffin that i got from my church ahahah
how sweet it will be if i was the one who made it
and he was teaching, i reached in time and kinda overheard what he taught his students
to my surprise, he mentioned both my bro and i, how were our journeys walking with Christ and all
gosh, i felt touched, does he always do this every sunday? i wonder, i wished hahah
and he actually told me that he was touched when i asked him if he was, can tell is sincere HAHA

SALES SALES SALES !!!
gosh, there are sales like everywhere and i am so happy cos most stuffs are cheap and cant wait to get them all ahahha
people, pls go and shop! its the right time for you people to splurge :)

I. AM. SO. BORED. 


PS: I miss my ballerina blog alot, i feel that it has so much of memories and fun :')

Life Changed

life changes for everyone of us living in this world (DUHH)
well, i want to thank God for everything to allow changes to be placed in my life
apparently, i am not really into an enthusiastic mood to share abt what changes or stuff but just really want to thank God for always guiding me through my life and that optimism in me that brings out that cheerful spirit that i always present myself to others
ok, i can share a bit bit la, it wasnt easy as i thought to take up more responsibilities nowadays
now i am like managing my working time tgt with my night time for prep bible study, and taking care of the family admins alr hahaha MACHIAM wife to be SIOH~!
yeah, going to move house and helping my grandma to read letters or plan to see furnitures, taking care of my brother in school or work and all, like maybe taking over a quarter of my dad's responsibility as a mini breadwinner in the family
bible study: that motivation whereby you have to do it every week and thinking abt it everyday is not at all blissful for the start and den i came to realise that i am forcing myself to do but i am not handling it in a good way as a servant for the Lord
i prayed, for my intentions to be right, for my priorities in life to always place God first no matter what
yes i admit, the time i used to declare FREE is limited alr, i am not as free as the past Sophia used to be
i will think what i need to do for the day and things need to be considered
i really want to earn that understanding from ppl... cos is more of placing God first
i may fall short or what but i want to strive to what i can even at my last breath to glorify Him
ask yourselves Christians, what have you all been doing? wandering abt to here and there, does it get you to anywhere? have you been praying to God? and how has God guide you and all?

my answer: I have been struggling a little with time management but still considered smooth as i get my things done, i am not wandering becos i dont even have the time to, i am packed with upcoming things to do, i have been relying and depending more on God each day (i hope this doesnt dies), HE IS ALWAYS GUIDING ME and i am grateful for that always
going to church on a sunday is the best day i can ever asked for in a week :)

Family!
I have never been a person to read the newspaper unless its something that interest me
well, let me share ....
the only time i touch a newspaper is when i am reading the tv timetable
gosh, if you are my parents or boss, confirm will give me one tight slap ahhahaa
another time when i touch a newspaper will be when there are scandalous cases of celebrities or extreme murderous cases...
i am not a person who is able to allow HOUSING BLOCK, ECONOMIC CRISIS, POLITICIANS, WORKER'S PARTY blah into my mind (maybe allow but can never remember)
CPF, NFK, BUYING HOUSE, stock market here and there or buying car, financial analysis ETC
I am not a news person, and so taking up such responsibilities can be a little struggle and unwilling
but for now, is like CPF and buying house la so have my dad still ok HAHA
recently, i heard that my brother lost some money and it somehow just struck me that i have the responsibility to know what happen or how (taking care of this matter which my dad had no clear idea abt)
as some of you may know that i dont stay with my parents, i am staying with my grandma and my brother in a flat, going to move out soon somewhere this month or next
yup, so this is family, moving on

Life! (this covers alot so i am just going to say this much)
i should stop complaining and work towards what is upcoming to me
I would want to thank God that i kinda found my happiness
my blissful period of my life has began but there are definitely feelings of uncertainty which i want to commit and submit them all to God
well, as God is my creator, i lift my burdens to Him, not just becos I belong to Him but He is definitely my One and Only Saviour whom i can approach to

Blog!
and due to the fact that i haven been blogging as regularly as last time in my previous blog, i am sure my readers really went down the scale yeah
i do explain things in my blog so if you guys didnt read or what, i am sorry but dont blame me for things that i cant do becos i have said and you didnt take the effort to know as how you did last time
all i want is one word: UNDERSTANDING
its easy but it seems really hard for some ppl in this world to even do it
plus even if i dont explain in my blog, i am sure by human nature, we shld understand one another
and i am not saying on my own perspective, i am saying this on the behalf of alot of ppl
and i do know that we all have our own principles and standards of expectations but please do make the effort to UNDERSTAND
and i wont push all the way for stubborn ppl who refuses to do it, i did my part and sorry to say but i have other better things to do besides all these

well, its a blessing to be able to rejoice and look forward to the upcomings in the future
entering into working life is like into a new world for me, totally~
I am grateful to live no matter how life sucks becos God is with me!
haahha and i really miss maisie, it has been super long since we last met in August 2012!!! :O HAHAHA

One thing i love abt friends and i want to achieve is:
Rejoice with those who rejoice,
mourn with those who mourn.