Reflect...

I want to declare that I want to prioritize God first
Friends, I hope you can understand this becos it is not easy for me to manage church and all outings smoothly when I am working and all.. Not easy at all and it's super stress.. The feeling which I hate and needed God most!
So just saying in advance in any case that I won't be able to make it for outings or worse still Dont even ask me to plan, God comes first and just first and nothing else.. Alright? Had a deep talk session with my dad and really felt disappointed with myself that I am unable to manage all these and please God

For now I am just trying to settle down and ponder things in life! Life has been busy, nothing but busy with so many activities that I don't even have time for God, hope you guys are understanding cos I do believe I make understand friends :)
If you guys are bored, perhaps take some time to maybe just encourage me ok? I know I may kinda ask for too many requests but I really need them somehow now and during this period of pondering and reflecting
I don't want to leave God and I don't want God to leave me becos I need Him!
Sigh really feeling down nowadays and hope I can manage my time better within this trial kind of thing :')
Goodnight :)

today is 28th March

tmr is good friday and one thing to thank for is that its the last day of work for this week
well, practically for most of us i guess

things to repent just made me want to blog right now
using this extra time that i have
i have heard many stories and also will never forget my own story that God has created for me
my story, i am proud to share my story
my story has brought me life
this story in me has changed me
it consists of many many characters and props
it consists of miracles and wonders with dreams
it also consists of someone important, God :)

whenever i asked someone, what is the world like
most answers will be  - the world is never fair, nothing in this world is free, no one gets what they want
due to humans' desires for their own pleasure and nothing is ever FAIR in this world
broken relationship, financial problem, spoilt friendship, family issues etc
this all sums up my story?

I made many mistakes in life despite i can rank them from top to bottom
thank God that I didnt murder or what
thank God for always being there for me
there are ppl in my life who has caused my troubles but what am i suppose to do
i seemed to be sinful just to accommodate with them and neglecting God aside

this is the day and the time to perfectly repent for my sins
God, I had neglected You, You werent of my first priority
something that i am too ashamed to share, something which i dont deserve a good life
sometimes i asked why am i living in this world
come on, this shldnt be a question to why is my mind is so negative -.-
God gave me a life to glorify Him
but I am doing things that does not please Him AT ALL!

life is study, study, study/work, work (what I am now)
there are many many important and treasurable ppl in my life
one whom I respect most, is my dad
i indeed learnt alot from him and has yet to learn totally all, i need him in my life (not really a good thing)
another two who are important in my life forever, my former mother (my dad kept saying the more i grow, the more i am like just like her) and my grandmother
you guys must be thinking and asking, what about my stepmum
well, she is like a person whom i can respect but i am not close with her, thats all
my brother has never fail to cheer me up although he has been those typical "annoying" kind but i do appreciate his effort and nature to be my brother
life has its stages which served as stepping stones for us to be able to reach to the end until we die
through these, God has always been grateful to me as i was stepping
and i want to tell you all, that this is not just it that ends ur life
there are so many things to be thankful for
there are also alot of bo liao ppl disturbing you, you just need to know how to play the game
there are so many things i have yet to appreciate
your answers may be there are so many types of food i have yet to try
there are so many other activities i have yet to try out
there are so many places i want to go
but why not thank God that He gave you a chance to live ur life to make the fullest
defining fullest as an extend of how God want you to live your life :)

times up! i shall stop blogging now :)
have a Good Friday and Easter Day :)
think and reflect about your life of what have you done
right or wrong? happening now or past? what did you gain? did you learn anything out from it?
how can you improve ur lfie better? are there memories need to be kept or thrown aside? are there things you need to keep or get rid of? worth? happy or not? are you living how God want you to live?
march is ending soon, and I am glad that 31st March falls on Easter
~signing off~

Random and words before pictures

Back den when my hair was black :)

Finally met up with Gisele and Vanessa haha :)

Haha 'tap tap',
Whose there? 'Turn turn'
Oooh, it's Nicholas Tong!
Hi :)

Impact of my company

My one and a half months work duration has caused me to have 11 pimples! Best! Beautician, thank goodness I am meeting you today :)

12th March, JO's birthday, Jiayou nich!!!

Happy Birthday to you JOANNA nanananana!!!!!
hehe, like happy girl only
you are 20 alr leh, sian, when my turn comes, i will feel more sad-old HAHA
i miss being 16 and 19, these two years were like my best years or all

anyway, today, nich is going to face an operation so lets keep him in prayers ok?
like the surgeon will know what/how to process this situation, and that he will stay calm and God will definitely be with him, so have faith my friend :)

today is a battle worth battling
I am starting to enjoy my work better and hope that this will continue cos who knows what will happen next?
even melinda doesnt so keep up my head high and work forward
I am currently doing an investigation job which seems more interesting compared to just research and information analysis hehe

and I had learnt how to cycle!!! woohoo~
sian, plan was to wait to get a bf den teach me one but den now know alr so it also means to say hahahhahaha
yeah lorh but its ok, better than i dont know right?
now having hard time moving about in the office, cant sit like immediately, got to be slower and all hehe

now my days are like just letting them passing by, day by day, step by step
i dont know whats going to happen the next minute kind of thing
super busy, tiring and sometimes rushing
its like now schedules are just work, sleep, meeting friends, preparing bs and all
with all these, it totally took up like one whole week without proper rest and i do understand and got to expect that this will happen somehow
--- not forgetting beautician appointment, etc etc etc, practically is just going out to different places with different people, yeah!

so yup! I am still strong and forever strong, standing alone with the Almighty God's guidance and i do believe, He has been watching over me and all of us here hehe
my blogviews have been increasingly increasing, its a good thing but bad thing is that i dont really have a time to find to blog, like really blog, for now is just like parts and pieces but i am sure when i have the time to, i will, yup yup!!

thanks for those who has always been supporting me, love you all :)

Monday no blues woohoo~!

What the?! I want to represent PSA for photoshoot too!!!!!!!!!! :)

Church I miss you!

1st March has granted me with a runny nose a flu :)
Haha today like ok la, work was fine and all.. Hurry rushed things den leave alr HAHAHAHAHA
Thank you so much Janice for putting me in charge of distributing the PSA lanyards within my department,even my manager was shocked how come he didn't know, cos.... You didn't know lorh? haha and ppl started placing their orders of colours

Haha almost everyday, I have ppl coming to me asking me how I do my hair or do u have a bf cos at my age is the dating period hahaha, Chey!
It's ok, as long as these made me feel young :)

Going to meet sue now for Atas bar session hehe :)