I am glad that I am stress

well, what can i say when someone just dumps you something that you thought you are suppose to coordinate with him/her but ends up you are the ONLY one handling it, ending it alive..

i am grateful to be alive, and successful? is that the right word to use or say?

as long as i know that i did it and did my best and did what i could, i am fine to feel good about it

besides, whats the point having a promotion but still being treated the same way?

you just have to pick urself up and deal with it with a smile, fake smile i should say...

can i say that i am frustrated? truly i am, were, and ever

sometimes being #ignored #thrown #"ill"treated??
and the hash tags goes on...

i think i am overreacting too, aint i?
yes i think i am, i am thinking too much also and cant be bothered to think any further..

and why did you stare at me with that face as if you did not understand what i was trying to say?
clearly it was your responsibility to do it... haish, i feel bad complaining, i feel bad being in my own shoe, i want to be happy but it doesnt seem like there is a light of the tunnel waiting for me..]

i am feeling stressful, so much so that sometimes i feel like breaking down..
i am also starting to make decisions by myself, not going through you becos you never have time so i dont have a choice.. dont know if right or wrong, besides, i will be the one taking the blame for you, so might as well i handle things by myself..

it is just sad, that i finally get to taste how it is like to work with you.. but only now then i realise..
you should know how unhappy people were when they heard of your "achievement"

i dont know what more to say already...

MC AGAIN!

Hi Everyone, I am back to blogging again... WHY?
well, I am on MC AGAIN?!?!? yes again, not cos of my sprained ankle but something tragic happened to me..

two days back (sunday), i was helping my grandma to cook chicken nuggets and all of a sudden, the burning oil popped right into my left eye...
I GOT A SHOCK of cos.. well, it wasnt as painful but what was worse was when my grandma told me to apply mama lemon... like what the?! i only applied outside my eyes but of cos there were chances that some will go in right?
yup after that, i experienced pain whenever i blinked my eye, what was scary was before i went to sleep, i was looking outside of my window and I got to experience halo vision!
scary much yea? the lights of the traffic lights were not contrasted but having glowing effect, like the microsoft powerpoint glow effect.. and my vision was blur... i was so scared...

next day, i came to work and after i on my computer, i went down to see the doctor...
the nurse applied some orange solution into my left eye and the doctor used some sort of artificial lighting to shine into my eye and detected that there was a white patch at my cornea area!!!
gosh what the heck was that? he said, that could be the oil but i dont know about the mama lemon, ok that sounded funny, i meant the mama lemon part... and so, he referred me to go SGH A&E dept

i dont know why A&E, shouldnt it be SNEC or smth? and true enough, i got referred to SNEC from SGH A&E lol, and the doctor examined my eye again..
well, that white patch mentioned and the blur vision and the irritation when blinking eye, was caused by the scratches when the oil splashed into my eye, it was caused by the heat of it, gosh, damn scary right? i heard alr i also felt so grossed out but i was happy that it was nothing serious, i was so scared, i kept calling out for God in my heart and kept praying that God will be with me and that nothing bad or serious will happen..... I prayed for God to be by my side and not to be scared and to be mentally prepared! i thought i was going to go for some sort of operation to remove the white patch... but no operation required.. in fact, the doctor told me that the scratches heals fast in about a few days or so
I REALLY THANKED GOD FOR THE EYES HE CREATED FOR US! they can heal faster compared to wounds if we fall down or smth hahaha

doctor only prescribed me with one eye drop for moisturising for every hour, another eye drop every four hours and an eye gel to apply at night only...
gosh, i guess when i am back to work, i have to set alarm for every hour each day.. to remind myself to apply eye drop hahaha... but overall, i really thanked God that I am fine.. what a good testimony to actually share that He comforted me and was with me throughout! Praise ye the Lord :)

MC + weekend = long holiday for me!

Hi all,
its me again blogging!

I have been craving for one of these breaks and i am so happy that i finally got one but of cos, reason being i sprained my ankle!

Somethings that I have been wanting to do since working life:
1) Cooked my own breakfast like scrambled eggs
2) Blog, like what i am doing now
3) Enjoying the morning at home (sometimes its really good to be at home in the morning - fresh air)
4) Facebooking, blogshopping, watching videos from youtube
5) Watch the tv (a hobby that i found out not long ago OPPS)
6) Just talking to my grandma whether or not she or i get what each other mean HO HO
7) Just relaxing and doing what i want

ok well, lets just do a check, i have sort of accomplished all 7 of them! thats not abt it hahaha, its just purely what i can do or want to do when i am resting at home

my ankle has been fine! had a cupping done yesterday, gross but it was for good!

basically just resting and resting and letting the day pass...
cant imagine the amount of time i am spending right now, can actually get things done in office but just want to say smth, i really need such break that the doctor was so kind to give it to me
hopefully, i will be recharged on monday and be able to work with my utmost concentration and utmost strength and positivity! YES!

as for now, i am glad that i can do whatever i want, the little things that i have been wanting to do just relaxing OK STOP BOASTING SOPHIA!

anyway, i am quite excited as the week is ending becos next week is going to be an exciting week for me! there will be catching up with friends and friends and friends and friends HAHAHA

Blessed and Blissful

Once again I am here to blog how blessed I am...
to have people who really miss me, care for me and being there for me...

last night, i took part in a netball competition with my colleagues : Karina, Agnes and Eugene..
never did i expect to disappoint myself even further by not playing or performing well.. sigh
and so i told myself that i shall not give up but to continue practicing with the team after the match..
and never did i expect that in the midst of playing, i sprained my ankle and it was quite a bad one this time...
could walk but felt pain! ppl crowding ard me to pull me up and brought ice to ice my leg! touched much! thank you all! sigh, guess i am not fated to play my favourite sport - NETBALL
what sport should i change to? something gentle for me? LOL well, shall see what interest will i get along the way..

Thank you Karina for sending me home, and also Eugene for helping me to carry my stuff
and again, never did i expect Eugene to actually take leave from work to accompany me to go see the doctor and the sinseh!!!! I was so touched! my brother had to go sch, parents working, grandma too old, well sounds like i am all alone myself but this guy step up to bring me to seek treatment and Eugene, you dont know how thankful I am right now to have you to take care of me...
in fact, i did not think much of what am i going to do next! everything just came in a day..
#stress #period #crankiness #sprainedankle #younamethemall
and this poor guy got to withstand all these.. sigh my bad!
He was so sweet to actually planned what to do, go see doctor and go see sinseh and all
My colleagues were also worried and also told me what to do to seek treatment!
oh wells~ i better take care!

so moral of the story, do not over commit yourself thinking that you can but actually you cant!
#Blessed and #Blissful

Sophia wants to say thanks :)

Hi Everyone, got miss me anot? LOL
of cos not, cos i am not a reliable blogger.............

anyway, i am quite free now so i would like to take some time to give thanks.

I am getting busier in my current job - HR!
many ups and downs (as expected - but to me, what are they now HAHA, its common)
but i am really thankful that God was and is forever very smart and great to place very nice and caring colleagues in my life, be it old or young...
there were really caring people around me in my workplace, which makes it harder to part with them...
I can strongly confess that I cant bear to part with this grp of people.. hahaha
they are really people who makes my day without knowing becos its just them and i love it how they are now....

I also want to thank my family, especially my dad, grandma and my brother..
(well, not really close my stepmom as time goes by but she is still my mum afterall even though ppl said no to me)
my grandma, I love her so much!! she never fails to bring in the family warmth and happiness we all need after such a long day.. she is just a very cheerful person whom i feel that i have to learn from her, to be more positive than usual and more happier than usual and of cos hyper...
she never fails to whip up really good food for the family and even prepare the fruits i need for everyday to work.. she is really someone i cant bear to part with too because she is simply too great!
I thanked God that I have such a great grandparent :)

my dad, he is more like my best friend! we always talked about the most nonsensical things and agreed with each other! he is also my duet partner who never fails to give me surprises with his harmonising HAHA, he is someone who never fails to support me and give me the encouragement i need.. he is a 24/7 father (ok not when he is sleeping), but someone whom i know will be there for me whenever i needed someone to cry to, to rant to, to share my happiness with... although as a father, he does sets standards but i do respect it, I thanked God for him :)

and of cos not forgetting my brother!! one word i have been describing him since he was born - CUTE!
his cuteness never fails to make me happy~ he is 19 this year but he looks like 12.. hahaha
when he knows that i am unhappy or angry, he always takes the opportunity to take food for me during dinner and that really melts my heart to a certain extent, even tears cant wait to rush down my cheeks.. when we were younger, and he knows that i am angry, he will always ask me "hi, will you forgive me?" hahaha so cute right? you can call me weird but i love to touch his face, many many times, its so smooth thanks to my "massage" over the years hahaha.. he is really a sweetie to me and i thanked God for it :)

and my friends, too lazy to name them all but you know who you are la, you la, who else? hahaha
they are the ones who has seen me since primary, secondary school wow i dont know how many times i am repeating this, those who were in my poly times and china times and watching me grow until now... woah i can never walked this far without EACH AND EVERYONE OF THEM!!
i love being with my friends cos 1) it is always a declaration of it is time to de-stress and have fun, 2) i love to talk nonsense with them and i know i do get reciprocating nonsense back hahaha, 3) they are the ones who care for you at another perspective, 4) they are RANDOM!
plus my church friends, who grew up with me since sec 3 and are still in touch with me, woah i do appreciate such friendships becos i feel that i grew haha, thank you everyone!!
there is so much to say about friends, and i cant never stop! but i have to if not i will just keep going on and on...

to a guy whom I can proudly say that I LOVE, hehehehehheee
the award goes to Eugene Lim ZhiYong (SXXXXXXXZ), opps hahahaha
two of the de-stressing moments he did for and with me this year :

1) was to catch CINDERELLA hahahaha he was so funny before the movie starts, like trying to snore loudly -.- hahaha and i rmbr what he said "hey guys here, were your forced to be here becos your girlfriends are here?" shhhhhhhhhhh >.< but he still accompanied me and he actually liked the story! hahahahaa ITS WORTH IT teehee .. 

he also bought a "to look like couple" liverpool (i nearly typed LOVERPOOL) jersey for me

2) A ("Failed") surprise to the Beauty and Beast Musical.. well i still appreciate the thought behind this la, hahahha if your gf was "known to be a stalker", surprising may be slightly harder.. i told him "its good that you fail, so that you know that you have a specific goal in this r/s, which is to keep trying until i am 100% surprised", and he was giving me the whuuuuttttt face and pretended to walk away from me like he didnt know me lol

HAHAHA so much hardwork lehhhhh~ 

wah, i think i praised him too much and made it seem like i didnt do anything! i got okay.. one of the sweetest things he cant compare with others was this handmade fruity crackers:

when i showed him for the first time, he thought was from google, WOW best compliment ever in terms of food! but to be honest, i never thought that making such a small little thing have to get so many ingredients.. but they were really tasty according to him haha, i told him that i didnt try so i just made hahaha, although i did tried a little here and there but it shouldnt go wrong hahaha and he said it was really sweet and nice and went one round in office to show off - wth? hahahahhaa and he told his boss that he wont have to worry in the future, he wont go starving HAHAHHAA over crackers? please la... and i cant wait to make it for my friends too, i made somemore for my other colleagues and they love it so much yayyyyyyy!!!!!

ok enough sweetness, i have to control the amount of things that i typed for a certain someone hahaha...
ABOVE ALL THESE, i want to thank God for everyone in my life.. HE IS SO AWESOME to give me the happiness that any girl would wish for in life, be it from family, church, workplace, friends, r/s etc.
I know that I am well taken care of by Him hehe :)

stay tuned for my next post hahahaha which i dont know when :)

2nd March :)

Hi all,
I am here to blog about OBVIOUSLY MY LIFE!
well, just had that feel and just felt like i have been neglecting this commitment but well, i still do hope ppl still reads my blog HAHA

anyway, life has been good so far and the fact that i have the time to even blog shows that i am quite free and slacky over the weekends

let me share something here :

ok, i am going to sound like an auntie when i am going to describe how much i saved here..

so as you can see, these are from TOPSHOP but they werent on sale in topshop but in shops that has no name so basically these shops helped to "clear stocks" and they are on HOT SALE PRICES..

a mixture of other shops..

so let me start by explaining that one of these, cost $19, so supposedly i will spend $57 if i am going to get these three...

however, they gave A BIG DISCOUNT for $9 each which is so cheap right? so supposedly i am to spend $27 BUT BUT BUT there was a sign there saying 3 makeup items for $10

GOSH ARE YOU SERIOUS?! and so yup!! i spent $10 on this and saved $47 technically :)

do i sound like an auntie? hahaha

anyway, saturday was a chilling day for me cos i just wanted to chill and read a book given by my manager hurh hurh

it was a failed attempt to chill becos i was at starbucks and ordered  ice blended mocha and the person put two covers over the cup and i was trying to take them out and it splashed all over, not just me but on this lady who was beside me and her jeans got stained! my word! I AM SO SORRY - that was what i exactly said haha and she was quite chilled abt it and well, i sat down and jot down plans in my diary :)

and went to church ...

Today: learnt to cook chicken rice from my grandma, it was fun but normally when i am the one cooking, i wont feel hungry to eat them? guess thats for housewives if they even feel the same way as me :)

ANYWAY, eugene is overseas at London and he just went to Liverpool to catch a match so he will be gone for three weeks

well, if thats why you all think that i am so free right? ahahha partially right la but still, i want to make full use of my time that i have to also do things that i want to do..

on the 24th Feb: CNY Lo-Hei with the Unions

well, it was for me to emcee however, i had sore throat and got mc 

and my backup took a whole week of leave and so Eugene got chosen by the head of HR - Kevin, to be the backup of the backup lol

story went like this:

(Kevin and my boss, Gerald, was in the life and......

Kevin : so who is the emcee for tmr?

Gerald : Erm, Sophia but she has sore throat

Kevin : oh get Eugene to do it then, girlfriend cant make it, boyfriend should be able to cover "hurh hurh"

Gerald :  ORH)

hahahah gosh, how awkward was that and when i was back on that day itself, Kevin was thinking if we both could emcee together and he was very keen on that idea and thought it was a good suggestion hahah but we both disagree cos i dont tink i fully recover lol

in the end, it turned out that we both emceed together and received wonderful feedbacks on doing emcee.. some thought we were imported from elsewhere, some were amazed that we were psa staff, most said we were professional and very good!!!

yayyyy hi five to me and my boyfriend, great job done! and to be honest, it wasnt as distracting just becos you are doing this with your bf, i dont know how to explain but i hope you get what i meant, like i was just purely doing work and not being the dreamy sort that OH I AM GOING TO EMCEE WITH MY BF during the function so yeah am proud and happy for the both of us!

by the way, CNY has been alright and so so this year for me! my mum's side were all excited to see my bf which i did not bring him along with me, i meant WHAT FOR?! It's just a visiting and i dont see a need to do that THAT FAST, like hello? it will only happen after a few years down the road....

20-22Feb 2015:

also want to update everyone that i went to batam and it was a horrible experience for me cos i was sick and having sore throat and all :(

so as much as the place was fun with the fun ppl i went with, it wasnt as enjoyable as i hope it would be but some pictures to share! i suddenly love taking selfies, so pardon me :)

#DAY1

#DAY2

One of the memorable things we did was to release a firework which really really was something i did not expect us or even me to do it and so i was satisfied hahaha

Signing off now~

goodnight everyone, love you readers!

SOPHIA - TOO COMMITTED!

Hi all, yes, well this blog is not dead, thanks to Melody HAHAHA!!

at least i know i have supportive readers, well not alot compared to my previous blog (fingers pointing)

well, there is just too many things to recap and remember and to sum up my 2014... HURH HURH...
not enough time.. sophia is committed, too much indeed!
#nochoice #justdealwithit #shehasacaringbf

OPPS!! yes you caught that hashtag!
Proudly announcing this guy into my life, HAHAHAHAH after so long, i admit i am such a bad blogger...

well, we have been together for quite some time alr.. but was keeping it discreet, well too discreet alr and to keep my blog going, yup! (i promised that i will blog about him)

His name is Eugene :) He has been there for me even through the toughest time of my life, from my HAPPIEST MAX TIME to my MOST LOWEST POINT.. through tears of joy and tears of sadness/anger..

and also, i am really more than grateful to have friendS who are always there for me when i am down or crazily happy or random hahaha

I thank God for placing these ppl in my life!

Anyway, 2014 has been a more fruitful year for me! I learnt more than I thought I could :) JIAYOU SOPHIA! It has also been a year that I have my own thoughts and expressions, I am more opened to the people to express my opinions, more outgoing i guess? It has also been a year whereby I have the chance to send my friends off at the airport.. I finally know the feeling of sending someone off and as they walked into the departure gate, the feeling of lost.. not literal but the feeling of missing them.. reminds me of my china times haha

It has also became a year whereby I am so busy, taking up new roles and more responsibility to lead both in WORK and CHURCH.. and yes, things could be better well-planned and there were definitely more rooms for improvements.. Also, I have decided to take up the role of being an emcee in preparation for 2015.. well, this is how my life is made to be exciting~

It has also became a year whereby I scolded people opps haha.. Sophia never scolds but she did in 2014 oh wells, if you got on my nerve, den I am sorry but to blow up my top.. It has also became a year whereby I cant sleep at 1am because I will be late for work, it is hard to wake up when i have late nights.. (Reminds me of the stressful months in 2014, especially in december, whereby I have to work in the day and prepare for a christmas function for company (90%myself), and do church camp stuff at night until late and woke up late for work), but I am still thankful I have very very supportive friends who stood by me and gave me comfort, encouragement, thanksgiving messages and I want to say a big thank you to you all! It is a blessing to have each and every one of you to show me your love and God's love (AGAPE)

I have entertaining colleagues who are caring towards me, who are willing to lend me their listening ears to hear my sorrows and complains and who supported me and gave me advice to approach the situations.. I have crazy friends whom I adore them hahaha, am glad we managed to catch up and be crazy!

hahaha where's gene lim.. of course not forgetting him, not just a boyfriend, but a colleague and a best friend to me who:

- never fails to make me happy (our jokes, your lame ones and etc etc etc)

- never fails to surprise me (you think you didnt but i feel that you did haha)

- never fails to stand by me (helping me with what i needed)

- never fails to care for me (sorry, when i am too serious, i tend to neglect my health)

- never fails to make me feel special (even when i didnt think i deserve it, #blessed #blissful)

OK ENOUGH! how dare i type a paragraph of you hahaha i am biased :X

Let me share some of my resolutions for 2015:

some la, cos i didnt really sit down and plan about it, too committed (as shown in the title)

- to ALWAYS wake up early for work and church

- to SAVE money (as much as i can and as much as i can control haha)

- to be MOTIVATED in whatever i am doing (in work and in church)

NEW ROLES TO TAKE IN 2015:

- Worship leader / support singer in YAM (feels good to sing for God again)

- Emcee in company functions

I hope that you all had fun in 2014, be it happy/sad/angry/pathetic/epic/whatever it is, always thank God for it because this is how you will look forward to improve your 2015 to make it a better year! I am sure God will provide you accordingly as to what He has planned for you and that He is always gracious and merciful and His love is everlasting :)

looking back for these 21 years, I never regretted what I did, the decisions that i made, although i fell and thought everything was gone, God was there to show me that the new chapter has just began and thats why I have become who I am today. God has been so gracious to me and I cant take it for granted :) JIAYOU SOPHIA!

Goodnight Readers.. 

*hope i have more time to blog , cant promise this